Thinking about loss a lot. Tragic posts feel weird because hearting, clicking tragedy as a “like” is counter intuitive but I just wanna talk about it I guess.
This is five months ago, a day before my dad passed of lung cancer. Words in the news like oxygen, coma, death, are familiar. But I got to sleep in the folds of his hospital chair. At the time I felt alone and yet it was a privilege. And given everything going on today, I tell myself stuff that occurred to me on his final day. His eyes closed into a coma, the eyebrows in the shape of pain and I panicked for his comfort while he struggled to breathe. But other stuff happened in my brain like a gift. Thinking actually, maybe, his soul or whatever it is that makes us conscious had already begun to break or depart in the kindest of ways and he was meeting freedom from pain despite his body’s signals. And his odd, funny, compelling, meaningful impact on earth he knew as much as anything, bigger and happier than his human constrictions allowed. He wasn’t in the cold hospital, nothing was literal anymore. He knew how much I loved him, love him, despite his inability to respond. Those who were far away were with him somehow. And he wasn’t isolated but surrounded because he was larger than his own life in the hardest moment of it. And I don’t know if this is more a me thing because of rocky times with my Dad, but I didn’t know that once he was gone it would feel like someone pulled this thread or rope, vital to keeping me together, out. This woven-in thing was removed. I felt that happen. I didn’t give permission and then it was gone. I had prepared myself for bone grinding devastation but I didn’t know how vital in everything he would be until after he wasn’t there anymore. Every element took his battery so nothing had power. Like the sun and the moon were misplaced. But my grass grows, the current’s current, I can love without him even though I don’t want to so I try to be better, loving like him, funny like him, strange like him, courageous like him, without him. But listening to the news I keep thinking of us and over and over in my head I just want to say how sorry I am these threads are being taken.
Closed blinds with bullet holes. Police shot without visuals into the apartment of #BreonnaTaylor. Shot. Killed. Her. Over and over again. Not caring where their lethalness landed or whose of these lives they were going to end. A continued brutality, a genocide upon beautiful black lives.
There have been no charges against the officers involved so far. Link for petition in bio.
Closed blinds with bullet holes. Police shot without visuals into the apartment of #BreonnaTaylor. Shot. Killed. Her. Over and over again. Not caring where their lethalness landed or whose of these lives they were going to end. A continued brutality, a genocide upon beautiful black lives.
There have been no charges against the officers involved so far. Link for petition in bio.
I commit to being an active anti-racist. What will it take for a true and thorough national reckoning? Swirling in my mind from morning reading (links in comments)… “‘Could he please, please get justice for my brother, I need it. I do not want to see him on a shirt just like the other guys. Nobody deserved that. Black folk don’t deserve that. We’re all dying,’ he said. ‘Black lives matter.’” “The argument that [granting reparations to black Americans] is politically controversial … So was paying reparations for the Holocaust.” “Ross did not live under the blind decree of justice, but under the heel of a regime that elevated armed robbery to a governing principle. He thought about fighting. ‘Just be quiet,’ his father told him. ‘Because they’ll come and kill us all.’” “‘A child has no control over where they’re born,’ he says. ‘Under no circumstances should the ZIP code in which they’re raised dictate that they have less funding in their schools.’” “American police officers fatally shoot about three people per day, which comes close to the yearly totals of other wealthy nations.” “There’s a sense in which right now we must refuse to be comforted too quickly. Only if these screams and tears and protests shake the very conscience of this nation –and until there is real political and judicial repentance – can we hope for a better society on the other side of this.” “He pleaded for his life. When you try so hard to put faith in this system, a system that you know isn’t designed for you, when you constantly seek justice by lawful means and you can’t get it, you begin to take the law into your own hands.” Love you all.
I commit to being an active anti-racist. What will it take for a true and thorough national reckoning? Swirling in my mind from morning reading (links in comments)… “‘Could he please, please get justice for my brother, I need it. I do not want to see him on a shirt just like the other guys. Nobody deserved that. Black folk don’t deserve that. We’re all dying,’ he said. ‘Black lives matter.’” “The argument that [granting reparations to black Americans] is politically controversial … So was paying reparations for the Holocaust.” “Ross did not live under the blind decree of justice, but under the heel of a regime that elevated armed robbery to a governing principle. He thought about fighting. ‘Just be quiet,’ his father told him. ‘Because they’ll come and kill us all.’” “‘A child has no control over where they’re born,’ he says. ‘Under no circumstances should the ZIP code in which they’re raised dictate that they have less funding in their schools.’” “American police officers fatally shoot about three people per day, which comes close to the yearly totals of other wealthy nations.” “There’s a sense in which right now we must refuse to be comforted too quickly. Only if these screams and tears and protests shake the very conscience of this nation –and until there is real political and judicial repentance – can we hope for a better society on the other side of this.” “He pleaded for his life. When you try so hard to put faith in this system, a system that you know isn’t designed for you, when you constantly seek justice by lawful means and you can’t get it, you begin to take the law into your own hands.” Love you all.
This. Is. My Boyfriend. But for real. This blue guy @alexanfanger made this brilliant show “Troll” with Dan Schimpf. It’s on fxx tonight at 10pm 🧜🏼♀️ 🕺🏼😈#veryhorny and be safe alll luv luv luv (it’s on during “cake” // fxx’s adult swim and is airing on Hulu too)
Black Out Tuesday
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.
List on who I’m listening to. Adjusted it where it fell short.
@tamikadmallory
@sonyareneetaylor
@aclu_nationwide
@naacp
@blackfutureslab
@mvmnt4blklives
@mbk_alliance
@ijeomaoluo
@matthewacherry – posted a comprehensive list of bail funds that I donated to, with an updated list of who is still accepting donations and who are not.
I certainly am no expert in the right way to do this but in an effort to not stifle forward movement, I’ll be sharing information only pertaining to #blacklivesmatter
Other donations went to #georgefloydmemorialfund #blacklivesmatterlosangeles
And the justice for George Floyd petition on change.org is close to reaching it’s 12 million signatures.
More to do.