Waaaay too much fun behind the scenes shooting some images for the @lifeafterproject with @makeupartistmana and @hair.by.hare this was the most sane I looked all day. And I haven’t smiled as much and played this much on a shoot in a long time. Silly to follow…
Oh hey…tbt behind the scenes of the #lifeafterproject with @lifeafterproject @hair.by.hare and @makeupartistmana …she had the Midas touch… but she touched it too much
More behind the scenes from shoot with @lifeafterproject for #lifeafterproject although @hair.by.hare was the iPhone photographer who snapped these before I almost fell in the pool. Don’t do this in heels people.
With PTSD comes a lot of trapped energy in the body that is wanting to move. In fact, that’s really what ptsd is; stuck energy with its own intelligence; it loops because it’s trying to get our attention. It’s trying to move, to find an exit. •If you’re like me, you don’t want to feel or re-experience the discomfort or pain that’s trapped, so absent the right tools we can slip into habits of numbing and/ or dissociating in ways that are not sustainable long term. •For years I carried a lot of bracing in my muscles and a lot of undigested freeze in my soma. •I have learned there are tools that can facilitate thawing my freeze. And they don’t have to break the bank. •Heat is a big resource for me— Epsom salt baths, using an infrared sauna, building a fire. Body heat is a fave though obviously during covid, touch for me, and many others has been scarce. •My body yearns for the heat so much I would sit *in* my fire pit directly *on* my fire if I could do it safely. So I get as close as I can, and I rotate my body like I’m on a spit, and I slow roast my way back to comfort, embodiment and wholeness. /1 Continued in comments. •Fire as a Resource / Tool at the Nervous System level: When we are healing from traumas, attending to the body and what’s trapped in it can be overwhelming, and being in pain in our bodies can feel super lonely . So we need loving tools that can be administered in a titrated fashion— little by little— so as not to take us back into the overwhelm, and ideally help us to not feel so alone in our suffering. •In Somatic Experiencing, Resources are a wonderful way to help clients ease back into the body and support it to do what it is designed to do: flush out tension. •External resources are anything that make us feel a sense of aliveness, or more expansive, grounded, perhaps a feeling of relative safety ( after many years of our nervous system likely not experiencing or knowing safety). Resources can be found in nature, music, books, friends etc. /1 continued in comments
COVID and lockdown sent me into survival mode. And then my inner homesteader emerged. Primal provider panic brought me to vegetable gardening. And then my friend and conscious producer from the pixie realm @ginstar introduced me to foraging: @growforagecookferment and @pascalbaudar Once out of fight or flight I started to see my garden less as another daunting responsibility (amongst many others as a single mother in a pandemic), and more as the extraordinary ally and resource that Mother Earth is. I marveled at the medicine my wild and weedy nasturtiums could be, and they agreed to transform into pesto. I harvested orange blossoms and rose petals just before they fell and pink peppercorns once fallen, and they simmered their way into hedge-witch jellies. Lilac honey became gifts for my separated clan. Jalapeño honey has followed. Foraged chai tea with pine needles and pink peppercorns is probably not everyone’s cup of tea though it proudly has been mine. After years of feeling my pain and my bombastic and needy complex ptsd—as it has presented and looped through my heart, mind, body and spirit—this new hobby has brought me to feeling humble, grateful, enchanted and quiet. I have access to the subtle yet powerful intelligences of things growing just outside my door. And after years of my traumas teaching me falsely to believe that feeling bad was right, I now feel peace and satisfaction as I tinker in my kitchen. It’s a sign of my healing that I am playing and creating this way—I marvel that I am able to be available to it—to put time and energy into it —and what pleasure it brings because it is sustainable, generative and beautiful. #plantmedicine #foraging #ptsd #cptsd #downregulation #sustainability #homesteading #hedgewitch
COVID and lockdown sent me into survival mode. And then my inner homesteader emerged. Primal provider panic brought me to vegetable gardening. And then my friend and conscious producer from the pixie realm @ginstar introduced me to foraging: @growforagecookferment and @pascalbaudar Once out of fight or flight I started to see my garden less as another daunting responsibility (amongst many others as a single mother in a pandemic), and more as the extraordinary ally and resource that Mother Earth is. I marveled at the medicine my wild and weedy nasturtiums could be, and they agreed to transform into pesto. I harvested orange blossoms and rose petals just before they fell and pink peppercorns once fallen, and they simmered their way into hedge-witch jellies. Lilac honey became gifts for my separated clan. Jalapeño honey has followed. Foraged chai tea with pine needles and pink peppercorns is probably not everyone’s cup of tea though it proudly has been mine. After years of feeling my pain and my bombastic and needy complex ptsd—as it has presented and looped through my heart, mind, body and spirit—this new hobby has brought me to feeling humble, grateful, enchanted and quiet. I have access to the subtle yet powerful intelligences of things growing just outside my door. And after years of my traumas teaching me falsely to believe that feeling bad was right, I now feel peace and satisfaction as I tinker in my kitchen. It’s a sign of my healing that I am playing and creating this way—I marvel that I am able to be available to it—to put time and energy into it —and what pleasure it brings because it is sustainable, generative and beautiful. #plantmedicine #foraging #ptsd #cptsd #downregulation #sustainability #homesteading #hedgewitch
COVID and lockdown sent me into survival mode. And then my inner homesteader emerged. Primal provider panic brought me to vegetable gardening. And then my friend and conscious producer from the pixie realm @ginstar introduced me to foraging: @growforagecookferment and @pascalbaudar Once out of fight or flight I started to see my garden less as another daunting responsibility (amongst many others as a single mother in a pandemic), and more as the extraordinary ally and resource that Mother Earth is. I marveled at the medicine my wild and weedy nasturtiums could be, and they agreed to transform into pesto. I harvested orange blossoms and rose petals just before they fell and pink peppercorns once fallen, and they simmered their way into hedge-witch jellies. Lilac honey became gifts for my separated clan. Jalapeño honey has followed. Foraged chai tea with pine needles and pink peppercorns is probably not everyone’s cup of tea though it proudly has been mine. After years of feeling my pain and my bombastic and needy complex ptsd—as it has presented and looped through my heart, mind, body and spirit—this new hobby has brought me to feeling humble, grateful, enchanted and quiet. I have access to the subtle yet powerful intelligences of things growing just outside my door. And after years of my traumas teaching me falsely to believe that feeling bad was right, I now feel peace and satisfaction as I tinker in my kitchen. It’s a sign of my healing that I am playing and creating this way—I marvel that I am able to be available to it—to put time and energy into it —and what pleasure it brings because it is sustainable, generative and beautiful. #plantmedicine #foraging #ptsd #cptsd #downregulation #sustainability #homesteading #hedgewitch
COVID and lockdown sent me into survival mode. And then my inner homesteader emerged. Primal provider panic brought me to vegetable gardening. And then my friend and conscious producer from the pixie realm @ginstar introduced me to foraging: @growforagecookferment and @pascalbaudar Once out of fight or flight I started to see my garden less as another daunting responsibility (amongst many others as a single mother in a pandemic), and more as the extraordinary ally and resource that Mother Earth is. I marveled at the medicine my wild and weedy nasturtiums could be, and they agreed to transform into pesto. I harvested orange blossoms and rose petals just before they fell and pink peppercorns once fallen, and they simmered their way into hedge-witch jellies. Lilac honey became gifts for my separated clan. Jalapeño honey has followed. Foraged chai tea with pine needles and pink peppercorns is probably not everyone’s cup of tea though it proudly has been mine. After years of feeling my pain and my bombastic and needy complex ptsd—as it has presented and looped through my heart, mind, body and spirit—this new hobby has brought me to feeling humble, grateful, enchanted and quiet. I have access to the subtle yet powerful intelligences of things growing just outside my door. And after years of my traumas teaching me falsely to believe that feeling bad was right, I now feel peace and satisfaction as I tinker in my kitchen. It’s a sign of my healing that I am playing and creating this way—I marvel that I am able to be available to it—to put time and energy into it —and what pleasure it brings because it is sustainable, generative and beautiful. #plantmedicine #foraging #ptsd #cptsd #downregulation #sustainability #homesteading #hedgewitch
COVID and lockdown sent me into survival mode. And then my inner homesteader emerged. Primal provider panic brought me to vegetable gardening. And then my friend and conscious producer from the pixie realm @ginstar introduced me to foraging: @growforagecookferment and @pascalbaudar Once out of fight or flight I started to see my garden less as another daunting responsibility (amongst many others as a single mother in a pandemic), and more as the extraordinary ally and resource that Mother Earth is. I marveled at the medicine my wild and weedy nasturtiums could be, and they agreed to transform into pesto. I harvested orange blossoms and rose petals just before they fell and pink peppercorns once fallen, and they simmered their way into hedge-witch jellies. Lilac honey became gifts for my separated clan. Jalapeño honey has followed. Foraged chai tea with pine needles and pink peppercorns is probably not everyone’s cup of tea though it proudly has been mine. After years of feeling my pain and my bombastic and needy complex ptsd—as it has presented and looped through my heart, mind, body and spirit—this new hobby has brought me to feeling humble, grateful, enchanted and quiet. I have access to the subtle yet powerful intelligences of things growing just outside my door. And after years of my traumas teaching me falsely to believe that feeling bad was right, I now feel peace and satisfaction as I tinker in my kitchen. It’s a sign of my healing that I am playing and creating this way—I marvel that I am able to be available to it—to put time and energy into it —and what pleasure it brings because it is sustainable, generative and beautiful. #plantmedicine #foraging #ptsd #cptsd #downregulation #sustainability #homesteading #hedgewitch
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
Caveat emptor aka #buyerbeware hey @pipidressofficial when are you going to return my emails? You made me wait a month, sent me half the order, and half of what you DID send is utter rubbish. The blue and green dresses you see me elegantly modeling for you here are size small. REALLY?! Hey @instagram thought you’d like to know that this company comes up often as a sponsored link in my instagram feed. Not sure how it got there though one day I decided to give it a go. Zero customer service and bordering on total scam. Looking forward to you dealing with your sponsors and getting back to me with some customer support. And anyone else? Danger will Robinson! Abort mission to buy from this company until further notice.
#shambles
The bridge is surrounded by sights and sounds of life. A band down below is performing a Cranberries song. The air is gentle and carries the smell of something delicious cooking. Walking of dogs. Couples canoodling. Laughter. A truly perfect sunset.
#keepfamiliestogether
#jackfruit Bought a whole one… two latex gloves, a big ass knife and two hours later…it was almost ready to…well…do something with…and then… in an iron skillet with some coconut oil, cinnamon, dash of vanilla and a cheeky drizzle of maple syrup… holy two minutes of nomnom
This is the acrostic poem my ten year old wrote for me on the Mother’s Day card he made me for today. How fricking lucky am I?!
