To any parent who can relate…
My baby boy is going to turn four in a few weeks. 😭
I know it’s not healthy or productive but I feel like I’m grasping on to what little baby is left in him. He’s so big now. So sweet and sensitive. So strong and smart. So damn kind.
Where did the time go?
I’m doing my best to have compassion for myself for the mistakes I’ve made. The times I was too busy writing or working or just too tired to play with him when he asked. The times when I was physical there but not actually present. It honestly keeps me up some nights. This feeling that I’m not enough. That he deserves better.
Sometimes when I look at him sleeping I replay those times in my head when I missed the mark. I’ll hear those words “daddy play with me” over and over again until I realize I’m just being a bully to myself. Just opening a wound that existed long before I became a father. Long before I even became a husband.
So right now I’m letting myself feel all of it. And as I feel I’m taking a breath and trying to remember all the times I DID play.
All the times I did show up and do my best. Those are what he will remember more than anything.
Deep down I know that but sometimes it’s hard knowing I will never get that time back.
But I do have today. And hopefully tomorrow.
I might not be able to change the past but I can change the future.
If this resonates with you- take a breath with me and shake out all that guilt and shame and shit that our wounds use to reinforce a belief that couldn’t be further from the truth.
I’m doing my best.
We’re doing our best.
Keep showing up parents.
We are enough.
#parenting #compassion #healing #fatherhood #dad #motherhood #parenthood
Ten years ago we fell in love.
Now we are choosing it.
#throwback to the year 2009. 25 and heartbroken. I shaved my head to release the toxic energy and pain from my previous relationship. I was depressed. Could barely pay my rent. I was listening to any sad song I could find on repeat. I felt lost and directionless. I had made other peoples opinions of me the measure of my worth and couldn’t get an acting job to save my life. I was exhausted. I was tired of being co dependent. Tired of being the man everyone else thought I should be. I was tired of performing.
I wrote #manenough for this guy in this picture and to anyone who has ever felt lost. I wish these conversations were happening back then. That I had a place to go and show up as the broken, beautiful, perfectly imperfect man I was and am today.
So here’s to be not just man enough but human enough today and every day of the year. Wherever you are, whatever you are going through please remember (and I am saying this to my 25 year old self and 37 years old self as well)…YOU ARE ENOUGH.
When I catch her taking a moment to herself.
Taking a moment to stop doing and start being.
To ground herself, bare feet in the soil, humbling herself before the majesty of her mountains- I am reminded just how damn lucky I am to have found a woman willing to put everything aside and do the actual work.
The quiet, painful, lonely, heart wrenching, deeply uncomfortable not fun- hard work of heart work.
And in those moments when I witness her take a moment and pull the arrow back so she can fly forward. I feel myself healing because she is healing.
And she is healing because I am healing.
And when we lie in that field that is currently under construction just as we are. That field that exists not just outside our window but “out beyond ideas of right doing and wrongdoing … when our souls lie down in that grass and the world is too full to talk about” – I will thank God, our ancestors and anything or anyone else I can think of to thank that she was brought into my life.
Just as I thank them now.
So as I look at her taking this moment, I take my moment. And in this moment I realize that I need nothing else in this world except what she has already given me.
Which is everything.
Sorry to be a tease 😉🤷🏻♂️
Hey @colleenhoover…ready to make #itendswithus?
@wayfarerstudios #moviemaking #ahhhhhhh
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If I never work in this town again…it will have been worth it!
I had such a blast making this song/video as an #HPPartner with my friends, family and TONS of autotune for a great cause.
Today, @HP introduces the #HPPaysYourPTA program in which they are donating up to $3 million to PTAs. Get your school started by signing up for this unique fundraiser featuring HP Instant Ink at hp.com/pta and spread the word about your own fundraiser by creating your own Instagram Reel, using our original sound to lip sync this song and share with #HPPaysYourPTA.
And thank you to @jamey_heath_ for producing this song and making me sound like a lost distant cousin of the #backstreetboys. And for @emilybaldoni and @juanpachecojunior for loving me enough to play with me!
Directed by the amazing @mikeho_
Choreography by my sis @movement.with.natasha
#BacktoSchool #PTA #ParentingTips #ParentsBeLike
Getting any movie made is a miracle and I am so damn proud of the entire team @wayfarerstudios for their tireless work to get #TheSenior off the ground!
I LOVE true stories and the story of Mike Flint (LEFT) going back to college at 58 to become the oldest football player in NCAA history is going to make you 😭and inspire you to go after whatever dream you have been putting off.
Thank you to my man @ciardimark for bringing us this film and just wait until you see the brilliant @michaelchiklis at his best thanks to our incredible director @rodlurie 🎥
This is a movie that reminds all of us that it’s never too late to become what we might have been.
I’m so pumped!
Let’s play some football!! Fort Worth, Texas
Getting any movie made is a miracle and I am so damn proud of the entire team @wayfarerstudios for their tireless work to get #TheSenior off the ground!
I LOVE true stories and the story of Mike Flint (LEFT) going back to college at 58 to become the oldest football player in NCAA history is going to make you 😭and inspire you to go after whatever dream you have been putting off.
Thank you to my man @ciardimark for bringing us this film and just wait until you see the brilliant @michaelchiklis at his best thanks to our incredible director @rodlurie 🎥
This is a movie that reminds all of us that it’s never too late to become what we might have been.
I’m so pumped!
Let’s play some football!! Fort Worth, Texas
Getting any movie made is a miracle and I am so damn proud of the entire team @wayfarerstudios for their tireless work to get #TheSenior off the ground!
I LOVE true stories and the story of Mike Flint (LEFT) going back to college at 58 to become the oldest football player in NCAA history is going to make you 😭and inspire you to go after whatever dream you have been putting off.
Thank you to my man @ciardimark for bringing us this film and just wait until you see the brilliant @michaelchiklis at his best thanks to our incredible director @rodlurie 🎥
This is a movie that reminds all of us that it’s never too late to become what we might have been.
I’m so pumped!
Let’s play some football!! Fort Worth, Texas
Getting any movie made is a miracle and I am so damn proud of the entire team @wayfarerstudios for their tireless work to get #TheSenior off the ground!
I LOVE true stories and the story of Mike Flint (LEFT) going back to college at 58 to become the oldest football player in NCAA history is going to make you 😭and inspire you to go after whatever dream you have been putting off.
Thank you to my man @ciardimark for bringing us this film and just wait until you see the brilliant @michaelchiklis at his best thanks to our incredible director @rodlurie 🎥
This is a movie that reminds all of us that it’s never too late to become what we might have been.
I’m so pumped!
Let’s play some football!! Fort Worth, Texas
I am so happy to share the Spanish edition, “Lo suficientemente hombre: Cómo desdefiní mi masculinidad” with all of you 💛 if you haven’t ordered yet consider ordering from one of my favorite independent booksellers @booksandbooks. They have been supporting their community and sharing the love of storytelling since 1982. This long-standing bookstore is carrying my Spanish edition and I can’t thank them enough 🙏🏻 Muchas Gracias!
I am so happy to share the Spanish edition, “Lo suficientemente hombre: Cómo desdefiní mi masculinidad” with all of you 💛 if you haven’t ordered yet consider ordering from one of my favorite independent booksellers @booksandbooks. They have been supporting their community and sharing the love of storytelling since 1982. This long-standing bookstore is carrying my Spanish edition and I can’t thank them enough 🙏🏻 Muchas Gracias!
Maiya was clearly very excited for daddy’s Spanish edition of #manenough. Never a dull moment in the Baldoni house 😂😂😂
#theygotitfromtheirmama
#ithinkmaxwellwastwerking 🤦🏻♂️🤷🏻♂️
I was so excited and moved by my conversation with the amazing @ddlovato on their “4D with Demi” podcast. We went DEEEEEP and talked about love, healing, faith, mycelium, and thatwe are “trauma twinsies” and how that trauma is at the root of so much of our successes.
Check out our episode of The #4DwithDemi anywhere you listen to your podcasts.
@obb @cadence13 @sb_projects @wearemanenough
Men, it’s on us. And it starts with modeling vulnerability. It’s the only way.
Hurt people hurt people. Healed people heal people.
If you have or know anyone especially a man who has experienced trauma (which honestly is all of us) please please please listen to this episode and witness the incredible bravery, vulnerability, accounts tilts and strength of my brother @jamey_heath_
#manenough
This was such a refreshing and sweet conversation with @anthonypadilla. I was blown away by his openness and willingness to dive deep right off the bat. Anthony has such a disarming and gentle spirit that I found myself sharing things that I hadn’t before because the depth of his vulnerability gave me permission to. This was a conversation that will stay with me for a long time and one that gave me a lot of hope for how far we’ve come and where we are headed.
Check out our newest episode of The #ManEnoughPodcast, out now anywhere you listen to your podcasts.
#ManEnough
Healed people heal people.
What an incredible hour! 😭 Thank you for showing up and holding space. Looking forward to doing more lives with you all.
@feministabulous and @jamey_heath_ I love you both dearly! Grateful to be healing beside you both.
This man…this human. @jamey_heath_ is one of my best friends; he’s been a mentor, a teacher, a brother, and on multiple occasions, even a backup dancer (if you know, you know 😜) to me. He is always super patient and truthful as I have stumbled and grown, over and over and over again. He’s the truest example I know of what it means when they say ‘hurt people hurt people and healed people heal people.’
Jamey’s story is raw, painful, honest, inspiring, and full of growth, healing, and humility. And man, I hope you’ll tune in to the new episode of The #ManEnoughPodcast and get to know the guy that I am honored to call a brother.
Jamey, my man, I love you.
PLEASE WATCH/LISTEN TO THIS EPISODE. This is why we make this show.
#ManEnough
@russelled is the man! Loved meeting him and hearing him get real about what he’s working on in himself for the betterment of his marriage.
Marriage isn’t easy folks! I definitely relate to being impatient and short, especially when I’ve been holding too much in. We men have to stop thinking we have to shoulder the burden and do it all alone. When we hold too much in, that pressure builds up and it eventually needs to come out.
Check out Russell’s full episode of The #ManEnoughPodcast anywhere you get your podcasts or at the link in my bio.
This conversation was not what we anticipated. And. This conversation is what it’s all about…the digging, the questioning, the leaning into why we do what we do in hopes of taking off a little bit of the armor so that the journey from our head to our hearts isn’t so damn heavy.
Super grateful that @emmanuelacho showed up for this conversation and brought his truth, his openness and his humanity.
Full episode out now. I’m curious to hear your thoughts on this one!
#ManEnough
SO DAMN EXCITED FOR THIS!!
The Senior is a true story about the incredible Mike Flynt who went back to college at 58 and actually made the team. This is a film that proves you’re never too old to chase your dreams. It’s about ageism, hope, forgiveness, fatherhood and masculinity.
We need these movies now more than ever.
Let’s play some football @michaelchiklis.
Go @wayfarerstudios !!!
SO DAMN EXCITED FOR THIS!!
The Senior is a true story about the incredible Mike Flynt who went back to college at 58 and actually made the team. This is a film that proves you’re never too old to chase your dreams. It’s about ageism, hope, forgiveness, fatherhood and masculinity.
We need these movies now more than ever.
Let’s play some football @michaelchiklis.
Go @wayfarerstudios !!!
I’m joining @melindafrenchgates and other leaders to call on Congress to seize this once-in-a-generation opportunity to pass a long overdue paid family and medical leave policy.
Unless we act, this opportunity may slip away—with huge consequences for women, families, and the U.S. economy.
Here are two steps you can take today:
1) Call (202) 224-3121 to contact your members of Congress and urge them to keep paid leave in the budget package.
2) Spread the word. Share this post with your friends and family, and tag 3 people who care about this issue.
We’ve never been closer to passing #PaidLeave, and we can’t give up now.
Don’t let Congress leave women behind.
