Vanessa Ray Instagram – This morning was the second day and I guess that makes it real? It doesn’t feel real. What it feels like heart break. And when my heart would break it would be you who’d help put me back together. You’d take me to brunch, mischievously devise a plan/prank, execute it, then take me dancing to celebrate. But who do I conspire with to go to the house of cancer and stand in a care bear stare line and FLIP IT OFF yell obscenities and feel release and get my power back? What’s the address of cancers place? I’d like to yell at it, tell it to give her back and then go to dive bar and dance with my friend. Cancer took the person that literally made the world turn (pun in-freaking-tended.) The person that we read descriptions of in break downs (and think this person doesn’t exist): *funny, huge heart, sensitive, cool girl, hot with out trying, adoring wife, powerful mother, tough, the most beautiful girl you’ve ever seen. (SERIES REGULAR)* I just arrogantly thought there would be more time. I thought I’d get to see her do more plays in backyards and hear her sing in more musicals and watch her mother and see her eyes when she talked about her love, Zach. I thought we’d have this loyal light beam here forever. I miss you. I love you, Marns. I hate this. Rest now, friend.