woah throwback for the #tvd fam from the final days x
📷 @the_drew00
If I could turn back time I’d do it all over again with what I know now. I’ve been a poor excuse for a partner in the past, not knowing how to really be there for someone, taking their love for granted, chasing dragons. I always did the best I knew how with the minimal and outdated generational tools that were bequeathed to me, but in retrospect I was always putting myself first and unable to allow another to weave themselves lovingly into my life – and I into hers – without feeling like my autonomy was under threat. ”Love” doesn’t come for free after all; it takes hard work and countless days of fucking it up, saying and doing the wrong things, avoiding difficult conversations, countless nights of looking in the mirror with confusion and often self-loathing. It’s taken a long time to surrender to the journey of all this, to be vulnerable and learn to forgive (the other and the self), instead of dancing around the seductive fires of egoism and eventually self-destruction. We must humble ourselves time and again to remember that our truth and our suffering is our responsibility to unpack and absolve. It can be shared to a degree – for from earth we come and to earth we must go – but we have to own it while we are still here. Only then do we have the capacity for change and to heal our generational trauma. Only then can we stand in our power and hold space to let someone else in. Sometimes I get it right, sometimes I really fucking don’t. There’s always further to go, more work to do, layers to peel back to uncover those hidden glowing things underneath that haunt us. Once we get in there, we can see that they’re often just parts of us that we left behind. Like abandoned rooms in a crumbling mansion howling to be renovated and inhabited, with flesh and blood, instead of haunted by ghosts and keening shadows. It’s been a long road to learn the language and songs of these shadows. I’m still in it of course. Still a humble student. Probably will be forever. So the only way is to carry on. With love and grace. Some kind of mottled light guiding us. (Cont. in comments…)
If I could turn back time I’d do it all over again with what I know now. I’ve been a poor excuse for a partner in the past, not knowing how to really be there for someone, taking their love for granted, chasing dragons. I always did the best I knew how with the minimal and outdated generational tools that were bequeathed to me, but in retrospect I was always putting myself first and unable to allow another to weave themselves lovingly into my life – and I into hers – without feeling like my autonomy was under threat. ”Love” doesn’t come for free after all; it takes hard work and countless days of fucking it up, saying and doing the wrong things, avoiding difficult conversations, countless nights of looking in the mirror with confusion and often self-loathing. It’s taken a long time to surrender to the journey of all this, to be vulnerable and learn to forgive (the other and the self), instead of dancing around the seductive fires of egoism and eventually self-destruction. We must humble ourselves time and again to remember that our truth and our suffering is our responsibility to unpack and absolve. It can be shared to a degree – for from earth we come and to earth we must go – but we have to own it while we are still here. Only then do we have the capacity for change and to heal our generational trauma. Only then can we stand in our power and hold space to let someone else in. Sometimes I get it right, sometimes I really fucking don’t. There’s always further to go, more work to do, layers to peel back to uncover those hidden glowing things underneath that haunt us. Once we get in there, we can see that they’re often just parts of us that we left behind. Like abandoned rooms in a crumbling mansion howling to be renovated and inhabited, with flesh and blood, instead of haunted by ghosts and keening shadows. It’s been a long road to learn the language and songs of these shadows. I’m still in it of course. Still a humble student. Probably will be forever. So the only way is to carry on. With love and grace. Some kind of mottled light guiding us. (Cont. in comments…)
TOMORROW: Atlanta, GA @eddiesattic 1900 x
This is my last solo show of the year. Come throw stuff at me.
🎟️ michaelmalarkeyofficial.com
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edit c/o @malarkeylyrics
🚨 Come out & play…
All upcoming shows:
4.6 LONDON, uk @thejazzcafe *
5.6 BIRMINGHAM, uk @hareandhoundsbrum *
6.6 MANCHESTER, uk @deafinstitute *
9.6 SHEFFIELD, uk @teslarecording **
11.6 LONDON, uk @lowerthirdsoho (VIP tickets available) **
5.7 ATLANTA, ga (USA) @eddiesattic **
* supporting @leralynn
** headlining shows
🐺 💀 🌻 🪩 🫧 🍉
ALL TICKETS at michaelmalarkeyofficial.com or LINK IN BIO x
📷 @francoisberthier
⚔️NEXT MONTH: BURIAL CLOUDS in the UK playing material off of our new record ‘Last Days Of A Dying World.’
16.8 @ourblackheart w/ @attanband & @forcefed_horsehead
17.8 @arctangentfestival w/EVERYONE
See you soon… ⚔️
seattle 2023 w/ @burial_clouds
📷 @cknwphoto
——> ONE WEEK AWAY: UK TOUR <——
JUNE (UK)
4.6 london, uk @thejazzcafe *
5.6 birmingham, uk @hareandhoundsbrum *
6.6 manchester, uk @deafinstitute *
* w/ @leralynn
9.6 sheffield, uk @teslarecording **
11.6 london, uk @lowerthirdsoho (VIP tickets available) **
JULY (USA)
5.7 atlanta, ga @eddiesattic **
** headlining shows
🐺 💀 🌻 🪩 🫧 🍉
ALL TICKETS at michaelmalarkeyofficial.com or LINK IN BIO x
Hey IG fam…here to tell you about @botanictonics as this is a product I’ve been using lately and have found helpful! Taking just 1/2 of one of these bottles helps to balance me out and endure social situations, makes me calmer and keeps me focused. Primary active ingredient is Kava root plus other ancient plants. This honestly works, that’s why I’m barking about it. If you feel like giving it a shot, I’ll give you a whoppin $40 off with my discount code MALARKEY40 x
see ya next time, ye scallywags
🖤 @thenedlondon
🎵 NEXT WEEK: ATLANTA
@eddiesattic 7/5
Tickets at michaelmalarkeyofficial.com or LINK IN BIO
📷 @thisissamueltaylor
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live drums & bass done for the new record c/o @paolo_mazz_ & @philippeclegg at @teslarecording; shit is sounding peachy – shoutout to @taylorswift 🪩
🪬 NEXT MONTH: We (@burial_clouds) are stoked to be heading to the UK for our first shows across the pond. Join us in the darkness…
Aug14 / Birmingham @hareandhoundsbrum
Aug16 / London @ourblackheart
Aug17 / Bristol @arctangentfestival
TICKET LINKS IN HIGHLIGHTS x
🪬 NEXT MONTH: We (@burial_clouds) are stoked to be heading to the UK for our first shows across the pond. Join us in the darkness…
Aug14 / Birmingham @hareandhoundsbrum
Aug16 / London @ourblackheart
Aug17 / Bristol @arctangentfestival
TICKET LINKS IN HIGHLIGHTS x
🪬 NEXT MONTH: We (@burial_clouds) are stoked to be heading to the UK for our first shows across the pond. Join us in the darkness…
Aug14 / Birmingham @hareandhoundsbrum
Aug16 / London @ourblackheart
Aug17 / Bristol @arctangentfestival
TICKET LINKS IN HIGHLIGHTS x
🪬 NEXT MONTH: We (@burial_clouds) are stoked to be heading to the UK for our first shows across the pond. Join us in the darkness…
Aug14 / Birmingham @hareandhoundsbrum
Aug16 / London @ourblackheart
Aug17 / Bristol @arctangentfestival
TICKET LINKS IN HIGHLIGHTS x
🚨VENUE CHANGE FOR LONDON SHOW TOMORROW: Due to unforeseen circumstances we’ve had to move tomorrows London show to @strongroombarshoreditch. All ticket holders will receive an email with FULL INFO & all tickets (including VIP) remain valid. There are still a handful of tickets left on my website!
vocal day @teslarecording
new pod @heavyholepodcast // listen where u listen
🚨 LOW TICKET ALERT: Sheffield, UK (9/6) @teslarecording 🦆
This will be super fun & shhhhhhhh don’t tell anyone, but I will also be giving you a first listen of some fresh mixes from my upcoming EP that I’m literally recording right now in this very studio. It’s also the same studio I recorded ‘Feed The Flames’ and ‘Graveracer.’ Once in a lifetime experience that you don’t wanna miss! x
Grab yer tickets now; LINK IN BIO…
power to the people #sagaftrastrong #sagaftrastrike
8/10 ⭐️ for our debut record in @metalhammeruk ain’t half bad; thanks @mcfeesy for gettin it
get your copy of ‘last days of a dying world’ now at @churchroadrecords @deathwishinc
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