summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
summer started off as such a bust but is ending on such a high note. ya feel??
a note to me, from me
a note to me, from me
a note to me, from me
posted this on tiktok a few months back and because it is #worldmentalhealthday, i wanted to continue the conversation here on my instagram as well. it’s no secret that i’ve struggled with my mental health over the years, but to the extent, i have kept quite hush hush. i’ve always longed to turn my socials into a lighter-hearted take on helping people improve their own well-being, but fail to make the mark as i’ve always told myself it is something i’ll do when i’m “cured” or found the answers to share. an unrealistic expectation, but a good goal to have, right? I started medication this summer after a major relapse of chronic panic attacks, depression, and DPDR which was something i was absolutely terrified to do and avoided for years (which to clarify is why i have been so hesitant & claimed to be anti-med in the video.) I couldn’t leave the house without my body & mind fearing for the worst. With the help of a dear friend, we found a trusted doctor and began treatment which I have been closely monitoring for two months now. And honestly, I wish i started them sooner. Y’all, I’m doing well. Not great – i still have my bad days & obviously side effects are annoying, but it has allowed me to separate myself from the symptoms of my anxiety. I feel like I can actually be present & work on it now. And that’s exactly what I plan to do. I do not plan to be on them forever (but if I must, then i must) but i’m beyond thankful for the relief it has given me to better understand what is happening in my brain & body so that I can move forward with ease & confidence in knowing things are going to be okay. I want to also thank my friends & family who have been nothing but patient & kind to me during this chapter. I promise you, there are people out there who will understand & support. F*ck feeling guilty or ashamed or embarrassed. Show up as you are, honestly, & do what you gotta do. Much love to you all 🫶🏻 J
posted this on tiktok a few months back and because it is #worldmentalhealthday, i wanted to continue the conversation here on my instagram as well. it’s no secret that i’ve struggled with my mental health over the years, but to the extent, i have kept quite hush hush. i’ve always longed to turn my socials into a lighter-hearted take on helping people improve their own well-being, but fail to make the mark as i’ve always told myself it is something i’ll do when i’m “cured” or found the answers to share. an unrealistic expectation, but a good goal to have, right? I started medication this summer after a major relapse of chronic panic attacks, depression, and DPDR which was something i was absolutely terrified to do and avoided for years (which to clarify is why i have been so hesitant & claimed to be anti-med in the video.) I couldn’t leave the house without my body & mind fearing for the worst. With the help of a dear friend, we found a trusted doctor and began treatment which I have been closely monitoring for two months now. And honestly, I wish i started them sooner. Y’all, I’m doing well. Not great – i still have my bad days & obviously side effects are annoying, but it has allowed me to separate myself from the symptoms of my anxiety. I feel like I can actually be present & work on it now. And that’s exactly what I plan to do. I do not plan to be on them forever (but if I must, then i must) but i’m beyond thankful for the relief it has given me to better understand what is happening in my brain & body so that I can move forward with ease & confidence in knowing things are going to be okay. I want to also thank my friends & family who have been nothing but patient & kind to me during this chapter. I promise you, there are people out there who will understand & support. F*ck feeling guilty or ashamed or embarrassed. Show up as you are, honestly, & do what you gotta do. Much love to you all 🫶🏻 J
posted this on tiktok a few months back and because it is #worldmentalhealthday, i wanted to continue the conversation here on my instagram as well. it’s no secret that i’ve struggled with my mental health over the years, but to the extent, i have kept quite hush hush. i’ve always longed to turn my socials into a lighter-hearted take on helping people improve their own well-being, but fail to make the mark as i’ve always told myself it is something i’ll do when i’m “cured” or found the answers to share. an unrealistic expectation, but a good goal to have, right? I started medication this summer after a major relapse of chronic panic attacks, depression, and DPDR which was something i was absolutely terrified to do and avoided for years (which to clarify is why i have been so hesitant & claimed to be anti-med in the video.) I couldn’t leave the house without my body & mind fearing for the worst. With the help of a dear friend, we found a trusted doctor and began treatment which I have been closely monitoring for two months now. And honestly, I wish i started them sooner. Y’all, I’m doing well. Not great – i still have my bad days & obviously side effects are annoying, but it has allowed me to separate myself from the symptoms of my anxiety. I feel like I can actually be present & work on it now. And that’s exactly what I plan to do. I do not plan to be on them forever (but if I must, then i must) but i’m beyond thankful for the relief it has given me to better understand what is happening in my brain & body so that I can move forward with ease & confidence in knowing things are going to be okay. I want to also thank my friends & family who have been nothing but patient & kind to me during this chapter. I promise you, there are people out there who will understand & support. F*ck feeling guilty or ashamed or embarrassed. Show up as you are, honestly, & do what you gotta do. Much love to you all 🫶🏻 J
I used to love change. I always felt bored when things were too consistent. Now, I am sooo the opposite. Change scares me a little bit. Maybe a lotta bit. I think we get caught up in routines and habits (good & bad) and cling onto them hoping things will just fall in our favor eventually. Doesn’t always work like that. Sometimes we have to initiate the change that’ll ultimately help us grow further. and I think that’s what i’ve been trying to learn most in this chapter. Sometimes decision paralysis gets in the way & the inner dialogue of what’s “right vs. wrong” can be extremely overwhelming. But I mean, who’s really to say what’s right and what’s wrong besides you? You are the writer here. And what’s important is that you feel that you have one foot in front of the other, no matter how fast or slow, big or small. Anywayyyyyys, that’s it for todays insta-diary. Big changes soon. Gonna take it in striiiide. Excited to bring y’all along the journey ✨
I used to love change. I always felt bored when things were too consistent. Now, I am sooo the opposite. Change scares me a little bit. Maybe a lotta bit. I think we get caught up in routines and habits (good & bad) and cling onto them hoping things will just fall in our favor eventually. Doesn’t always work like that. Sometimes we have to initiate the change that’ll ultimately help us grow further. and I think that’s what i’ve been trying to learn most in this chapter. Sometimes decision paralysis gets in the way & the inner dialogue of what’s “right vs. wrong” can be extremely overwhelming. But I mean, who’s really to say what’s right and what’s wrong besides you? You are the writer here. And what’s important is that you feel that you have one foot in front of the other, no matter how fast or slow, big or small. Anywayyyyyys, that’s it for todays insta-diary. Big changes soon. Gonna take it in striiiide. Excited to bring y’all along the journey ✨
I used to love change. I always felt bored when things were too consistent. Now, I am sooo the opposite. Change scares me a little bit. Maybe a lotta bit. I think we get caught up in routines and habits (good & bad) and cling onto them hoping things will just fall in our favor eventually. Doesn’t always work like that. Sometimes we have to initiate the change that’ll ultimately help us grow further. and I think that’s what i’ve been trying to learn most in this chapter. Sometimes decision paralysis gets in the way & the inner dialogue of what’s “right vs. wrong” can be extremely overwhelming. But I mean, who’s really to say what’s right and what’s wrong besides you? You are the writer here. And what’s important is that you feel that you have one foot in front of the other, no matter how fast or slow, big or small. Anywayyyyyys, that’s it for todays insta-diary. Big changes soon. Gonna take it in striiiide. Excited to bring y’all along the journey ✨
Just got word that @ganymede_movie won the audience award for best narrative feature at Chicago’s @reelingfilmfest, one of the oldest LGBTQ film festivals in the country! – truly a pinch-me-moment!! my first leading feature, one that required lots of blood, sweat, and tears. These things take tiiiiiime but i truly cannot wait for y’all to see this film (hopefully) soon 🫶🏻 y’all are in for a real treat
Just got word that @ganymede_movie won the audience award for best narrative feature at Chicago’s @reelingfilmfest, one of the oldest LGBTQ film festivals in the country! – truly a pinch-me-moment!! my first leading feature, one that required lots of blood, sweat, and tears. These things take tiiiiiime but i truly cannot wait for y’all to see this film (hopefully) soon 🫶🏻 y’all are in for a real treat
