Jordan Doww Instagram – posted this on tiktok a few months back and because it is #worldmentalhealthday, i wanted to continue the conversation here on my instagram as well.
it’s no secret that i’ve struggled with my mental health over the years, but to the extent, i have kept quite hush hush. i’ve always longed to turn my socials into a lighter-hearted take on helping people improve their own well-being, but fail to make the mark as i’ve always told myself it is something i’ll do when i’m “cured” or found the answers to share. an unrealistic expectation, but a good goal to have, right?
I started medication this summer after a major relapse of chronic panic attacks, depression, and DPDR which was something i was absolutely terrified to do and avoided for years (which to clarify is why i have been so hesitant & claimed to be anti-med in the video.) I couldn’t leave the house without my body & mind fearing for the worst. With the help of a dear friend, we found a trusted doctor and began treatment which I have been closely monitoring for two months now. And honestly, I wish i started them sooner.
Y’all, I’m doing well. Not great – i still have my bad days & obviously side effects are annoying, but it has allowed me to separate myself from the symptoms of my anxiety. I feel like I can actually be present & work on it now. And that’s exactly what I plan to do. I do not plan to be on them forever (but if I must, then i must) but i’m beyond thankful for the relief it has given me to better understand what is happening in my brain & body so that I can move forward with ease & confidence in knowing things are going to be okay.
I want to also thank my friends & family who have been nothing but patient & kind to me during this chapter. I promise you, there are people out there who will understand & support. F*ck feeling guilty or ashamed or embarrassed. Show up as you are, honestly, & do what you gotta do.
Much love to you all 🫶🏻
J | Posted on 11/Oct/2023 02:50:59
