Aja Instagram – People are always talking about how they want this Aja to come back. But the truth is in this era of my life I was not being authentic to myself, and I kept formfitting myself to be something I wasn’t because I felt so unloved for being who I was I created this character that I knew to world with love, and it was, the true pinnacle of my artistry. Taking things that I saw people loved and styling it to myself. Now that I am fully realizing who I really am though. I know that it would be a different story. I look back and see the way that this turned into the infamous “burlesque rapper” era and I cringe, because I don’t think that that was some thing that I really wanted either. I think all I really wanted was to be seen as a woman and not a person who is performing the caricatures of a woman. But I was in such denial. I often feel that this era of my artistry ruined a lot of my career and pushed away thousands and maybe even hundreds of thousands of fans I’ve watched slowly over the past few years as I ago from almost hitting 1, million followers on Instagram to pinching back down and the constant commentary about “ didn’t she quit?” And such. My one confession today is that I really wish I would have had the resources to overcome my gender, dysphoria and privacy, and not made my struggles so public. I often wonder how differently it would affect my career today. Nonetheless, I am very proud of the woman I have become and I hope one day those hundreds of thousands of fans that I have lost can look back and learn to love me again. Because as it stands, I feel like compared to before it is much more a few people who are supporting my artistry at the moment, and it has led to a lot of me doubting the future of my artistry but with that I say, I will stay and stand strong. I know that I have not hit my peak yet as I get ready to load my next era, I said buckle up kids. This one is for you. 💛✨🩸