Alexandra Johnson Instagram – I lied. When I posted a few weeks ago saying I was ready to train again. I wasn’t. I really wanted to be, so I thought posting that I was would hold me accountable.
I was trying. I went to the gym a lot, with the intention of hangboarding, or doing pull-ups, or anything. I would just get too bummed. I know how long this road is supposed to be, and starting to train again so soon just felt pointless.
I constantly feel like I’m slacking with training through being injured. I know other people have, and started way sooner. I feel like I’m behind where I’m “supposed” to be with PT. I keep comparing myself to others who have had the same injury. Hearing and seeing other athletes’ and peoples’ journeys was actually having a really negative impact on me. “Great, it gets better. So I’ve heard.” “This person did this at this many weeks, why can’t I?” I deleted Instagram for a while.
My surgeon told me the lowest point would come between 4 and 6 weeks, and he was NOT wrong. I’ve been having dreams of running and jumping over things. And I hate running, so that’s really saying something.
Friday was my 6 week mark, and it seemed like I woke up and some of the heaviness had sort of just dissolved magically. I woke up excited to go to the gym. So I did. And it was so fun. 🙂 (thanks @allisonvest!)
I didn’t do anything specific, just played around on all the hangboards and edges like a kid at the jungle gym. And I didn’t feel too bad physically, either! It was the perfect soft launch into training again. And this time, I really am ready. I know I’ll continue to have ups and downs for a long time. But I’m gonna take this as a win, and try to give myself a little more grace through this whole process.
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📸 @blakehendrix86 @camp4collective | Posted on 11/Jun/2023 21:47:11
