Robbie Williams Instagram – Just In the bedroom with Ayda ‘’When was I in London with you, was it last week?’’ She informed me it was 3 weeks ago. So that means, I’ve been ‘’better than meh’’ for at least 3 weeks. -says to self-My mental health has been pretty sound for a whole 3 weeks. Woah. im not counting chickens of course, But. What happens if im fixed? This is highly unlikely. But much like the fat comedian that worries if he loses weight, he won’t be as funny. What if all the negative thoughts and anxiety just went away?What if the social discomfort evaporates?Instead of that being a triumphant thought it kinda made me feel, well, Anxious ….Shit….Who will i be then? Now im thinking this is just the darkness trying to feed me lies to hold on to this mess. What if I love this fucked upness and im just delusional? See how it gets ya?…Fucking hilarious…genuinely… Anyway, I had an amazing 9th birthday day with my son Charlie. A day that’s as good as it gets. Simple and beautiful. He says to me ‘’Dad all the girls at camp fancy me’’ and then feigning what he thinks I’ll buy as humility says ‘’don’t know why’’.The thing is he’s being honest and dishonest. He doesn’t know why but at the same time he’s enjoying the feeling. That’s where the little smirk comes in. Mine and his. I also think he might be the only boy there. But I won’t let that spoil his fun and newfound ponderings. later in the day, I catch him looking in the mirror.’’Dad, do you think I could be a model?’’ I reply’’Most definitely mate’’ after a moment of studying his reflection a bit longer, he says ‘’I can’t be a model dad’’ ‘’why’’ I say. ‘’I’ve got two cowlicks in my hair. Models don’t have cowlicks’’.I turned on the water tap, ran the water through my fingers and patted down the offensive’ licks’’…..’’ There you go’’ I say ‘’Model’’. He smiled……’You know, Your Dad’s done some modelling’’ I say whilst standing there admiring him admiring his de-licked hair. He then turns to me with a  look of incredulity and disdain that will probably stay with me for the rest of my life. Kids eh? Here’s to you Charlton Valentine Williams. The very mention of your name makes my heart smile. Charlies Dad Namaste ❤️🙏