So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
So I woke up here In New Zealand yesterday to 25 texts, A similar amount in WhatsApp and a long list of emails. Some from people I haven’t spoken to for many many years.
All reaching out to congratulate me on the documentary.
After replying to many of them I just burst out crying. A good cry. As with tears, my first response was to stop them. And then I told myself ‘’Nah, fuck it. Go on, have a big blub’’
So I did. I blubbed.
Not sure what the tears were actually for. There will be many reasons. And they will all be revealed over time. But the main feeling was relief.
I have felt Despised. To my core, I was an embarrassment.
I have felt worthless no matter what I achieved.
And today I don’t.
’Today was a good day’’ Ice Cube
I may leave my AK at home.
O’Shea Jackson
Namaste ❤️🙏
New Zealand: thank you for two unforgettable, beautiful nights. See you again soon I hope. Rob x
New Zealand: thank you for two unforgettable, beautiful nights. See you again soon I hope. Rob x
New Zealand: thank you for two unforgettable, beautiful nights. See you again soon I hope. Rob x
New Zealand: what an amazing opening night to the Australasian leg of XXV. See you tomorrow – thank you Hawkes Bay x
New Zealand: what an amazing opening night to the Australasian leg of XXV. See you tomorrow – thank you Hawkes Bay x
New Zealand: what an amazing opening night to the Australasian leg of XXV. See you tomorrow – thank you Hawkes Bay x
New Zealand: what an amazing opening night to the Australasian leg of XXV. See you tomorrow – thank you Hawkes Bay x
New Zealand: what an amazing opening night to the Australasian leg of XXV. See you tomorrow – thank you Hawkes Bay x
I got to the gig in New Zealand the other night and Lisa my wardrobe lady gave me the biggest hug she’s ever given me *and she’s a good hugger. I said Lis’ ‘’Is that hug You’ve -seen- my- documentry- and-you -felt- like- i-needed -it?’’ and with a sheepish smile she said Yes. I didn’t know she’d seen it. But I could just tell.
And that’s what it feels like right now for me.
It feels like the world is giving me a hug.
Truly remarkable the outpouring of love.
Much like I didn’t know how much I needed to have a child until Teddy turned up.
I really didn’t know how much I needed to be heard.
Until I was.
Bless you all
In Gratitude
Rob x
Im on a plane again. Just left my family. They were ALL crying this time.
Well, Not Charlie. He hugs but doesn’t cry. Even Beau the 4 year old joined in. There was a call from his nursery
today.’’Is something going on at your house because Beau has been upset? Something about his Dad leaving?’’
Fortunately, the reason is less like a country song and more like, well, Exactly like his popstar dad is off to do that thing he does for a while. It’s the first time he’s joined in with the girls and their tears.
It feels good to be needed. It feels good to mean that much to them. It feels good to be loved. Alas I do know
that pretty soon when the teenage years happen they’ll probably cry at the thought of me coming back.
But for now, im pretty epic in their eyes and that feels fully epic in my soul.
Mummy has really struggled this time. She always does when I leave but her whole day and the thoughts in it were centred around me not being there for longer than she would like. And this caused a great sadness.
Ayda was sad last week too. She would say ‘’Boozy, I can’t believe you’re going to go away soon’’ I look over and her face is full of vulnerability and on the verge of tears. I would say ‘’We have to deal with the right now. And right now it’s 9.50 pm, it’s Thursday and im sat in this car with you’’ This helps her in the moment, It doesn’t extinguish all the fearful thoughts she may have. But I can see her try to pull herself together and be a ‘’Big girl’’
Me? Well, Im on a mission. I leave to provide. I leave, to provide, so there’s something to come back to. And that ‘’something’’ on all fronts has a magic way bigger than my tiny mind can process.
Im a very lucky man.Possibly the luckiest.
With Gratitude To my family
And to those about to come and see me perform
Robert
❤️🙏
Im on a plane again. Just left my family. They were ALL crying this time.
Well, Not Charlie. He hugs but doesn’t cry. Even Beau the 4 year old joined in. There was a call from his nursery
today.’’Is something going on at your house because Beau has been upset? Something about his Dad leaving?’’
Fortunately, the reason is less like a country song and more like, well, Exactly like his popstar dad is off to do that thing he does for a while. It’s the first time he’s joined in with the girls and their tears.
It feels good to be needed. It feels good to mean that much to them. It feels good to be loved. Alas I do know
that pretty soon when the teenage years happen they’ll probably cry at the thought of me coming back.
But for now, im pretty epic in their eyes and that feels fully epic in my soul.
Mummy has really struggled this time. She always does when I leave but her whole day and the thoughts in it were centred around me not being there for longer than she would like. And this caused a great sadness.
Ayda was sad last week too. She would say ‘’Boozy, I can’t believe you’re going to go away soon’’ I look over and her face is full of vulnerability and on the verge of tears. I would say ‘’We have to deal with the right now. And right now it’s 9.50 pm, it’s Thursday and im sat in this car with you’’ This helps her in the moment, It doesn’t extinguish all the fearful thoughts she may have. But I can see her try to pull herself together and be a ‘’Big girl’’
Me? Well, Im on a mission. I leave to provide. I leave, to provide, so there’s something to come back to. And that ‘’something’’ on all fronts has a magic way bigger than my tiny mind can process.
Im a very lucky man.Possibly the luckiest.
With Gratitude To my family
And to those about to come and see me perform
Robert
❤️🙏
Im on a plane again. Just left my family. They were ALL crying this time.
Well, Not Charlie. He hugs but doesn’t cry. Even Beau the 4 year old joined in. There was a call from his nursery
today.’’Is something going on at your house because Beau has been upset? Something about his Dad leaving?’’
Fortunately, the reason is less like a country song and more like, well, Exactly like his popstar dad is off to do that thing he does for a while. It’s the first time he’s joined in with the girls and their tears.
It feels good to be needed. It feels good to mean that much to them. It feels good to be loved. Alas I do know
that pretty soon when the teenage years happen they’ll probably cry at the thought of me coming back.
But for now, im pretty epic in their eyes and that feels fully epic in my soul.
Mummy has really struggled this time. She always does when I leave but her whole day and the thoughts in it were centred around me not being there for longer than she would like. And this caused a great sadness.
Ayda was sad last week too. She would say ‘’Boozy, I can’t believe you’re going to go away soon’’ I look over and her face is full of vulnerability and on the verge of tears. I would say ‘’We have to deal with the right now. And right now it’s 9.50 pm, it’s Thursday and im sat in this car with you’’ This helps her in the moment, It doesn’t extinguish all the fearful thoughts she may have. But I can see her try to pull herself together and be a ‘’Big girl’’
Me? Well, Im on a mission. I leave to provide. I leave, to provide, so there’s something to come back to. And that ‘’something’’ on all fronts has a magic way bigger than my tiny mind can process.
Im a very lucky man.Possibly the luckiest.
With Gratitude To my family
And to those about to come and see me perform
Robert
❤️🙏
Im on a plane again. Just left my family. They were ALL crying this time.
Well, Not Charlie. He hugs but doesn’t cry. Even Beau the 4 year old joined in. There was a call from his nursery
today.’’Is something going on at your house because Beau has been upset? Something about his Dad leaving?’’
Fortunately, the reason is less like a country song and more like, well, Exactly like his popstar dad is off to do that thing he does for a while. It’s the first time he’s joined in with the girls and their tears.
It feels good to be needed. It feels good to mean that much to them. It feels good to be loved. Alas I do know
that pretty soon when the teenage years happen they’ll probably cry at the thought of me coming back.
But for now, im pretty epic in their eyes and that feels fully epic in my soul.
Mummy has really struggled this time. She always does when I leave but her whole day and the thoughts in it were centred around me not being there for longer than she would like. And this caused a great sadness.
Ayda was sad last week too. She would say ‘’Boozy, I can’t believe you’re going to go away soon’’ I look over and her face is full of vulnerability and on the verge of tears. I would say ‘’We have to deal with the right now. And right now it’s 9.50 pm, it’s Thursday and im sat in this car with you’’ This helps her in the moment, It doesn’t extinguish all the fearful thoughts she may have. But I can see her try to pull herself together and be a ‘’Big girl’’
Me? Well, Im on a mission. I leave to provide. I leave, to provide, so there’s something to come back to. And that ‘’something’’ on all fronts has a magic way bigger than my tiny mind can process.
Im a very lucky man.Possibly the luckiest.
With Gratitude To my family
And to those about to come and see me perform
Robert
❤️🙏
Im on a plane again. Just left my family. They were ALL crying this time.
Well, Not Charlie. He hugs but doesn’t cry. Even Beau the 4 year old joined in. There was a call from his nursery
today.’’Is something going on at your house because Beau has been upset? Something about his Dad leaving?’’
Fortunately, the reason is less like a country song and more like, well, Exactly like his popstar dad is off to do that thing he does for a while. It’s the first time he’s joined in with the girls and their tears.
It feels good to be needed. It feels good to mean that much to them. It feels good to be loved. Alas I do know
that pretty soon when the teenage years happen they’ll probably cry at the thought of me coming back.
But for now, im pretty epic in their eyes and that feels fully epic in my soul.
Mummy has really struggled this time. She always does when I leave but her whole day and the thoughts in it were centred around me not being there for longer than she would like. And this caused a great sadness.
Ayda was sad last week too. She would say ‘’Boozy, I can’t believe you’re going to go away soon’’ I look over and her face is full of vulnerability and on the verge of tears. I would say ‘’We have to deal with the right now. And right now it’s 9.50 pm, it’s Thursday and im sat in this car with you’’ This helps her in the moment, It doesn’t extinguish all the fearful thoughts she may have. But I can see her try to pull herself together and be a ‘’Big girl’’
Me? Well, Im on a mission. I leave to provide. I leave, to provide, so there’s something to come back to. And that ‘’something’’ on all fronts has a magic way bigger than my tiny mind can process.
Im a very lucky man.Possibly the luckiest.
With Gratitude To my family
And to those about to come and see me perform
Robert
❤️🙏
It’s here… All four parts of ROBBIE WILLIAMS, from director Joe Pearlman, are now streaming – only on Netflix.
When im out at a restaurant or a bar going to the toilet is weird.Because that’s the only time im by myself. Some people sense this as the big opportunity. The amount of time’s I’ve turned around from the urinal to find someone that needed to visit the toilet to wash their hands.Their hands!No piss, Just a quick hand wash.Cos that happens in real life and isn’t suspicious. I will then wash my hands next to the person ‘’washing’’ theirs and have to partake in a striking up of a ‘natural’ conversation. Small talk whilst tucking your smalls in.
They establish they know who I am by asking a Robbie-based question.Usually ‘’what are you doing here then Robbie?’’ Well mate, I just had a piss and now im washing my hands. What are you doing? Then the most awkward thing about this whole charade happens. The man will put his wet hand out to shake my wet hand. I always offer my elbow. As to sort of ‘’cheers ‘’ to their elbow. Then they ask for a photo. Which is always a bleak request. I don’t want to do a photo with you in the bogs.*Someone filmed me when I was at the urinal once. That was interesting*
So now im leaving the toilet with ‘’bog man’’ to do a photo and I’ll open the toilet door to find the lady’s door opening at the exact same time.-This will not be by coincidence-.She will leave the ladies with a phone in hand and I’ll hear a ‘’Oh, Robbie, excuse me but can I have a….’’Which 9 times out of 10 I’ll oblige.-Photo that is. Get your mind out of the gutter.
Most people are taking these written accounts for what they are. My observations on my bizarre life. Some people read them and think im being ungrateful. Im not. I’d sign up for this life a trillion times over.
But sometimes im just a man with his cock in his hand wondering what is about to greet him when he turns around from the urinal.
Hank Armitage
Namaste
❤️🙏
So I just counted and between the InklInGs the ‘’thoughts’’ and the signs there are 163 things, actually way more if you count the slides. Pat on back to me from me.
The Netflix documentary seems to be doing a ‘’Thing’’ too.
The comments here under my InklINgs are incredible.
A sense of community is emerging. Something beautiful *to me and im sure to a few of you*
is taking shape.
So I was thinking about all of this *crass incoming* on the loo.*No1 btw, I sit down and I don’t care*
I thought ‘’What is all this? The doc? The inklings?The writing?’’And then I realised, It’s all self-soothing, and the by-product of self-soothing is Healing. Im Healing. The cynic in me wants to end that sentence with ‘’So that’s nice’’ Said with a knowing condescending smile to myself. But I won’t I’ll just acknowledge something is happening and be grateful that it is.
Let the healing commence. Seriously.
Yours
The Sooth Operator
Namaste ❤️🙏
