Ana Marie Cox Instagram – Now up at my experiment in recovery blogging: Step Four and how sometimes being fearless means loving yourself *more.* IT IS NOT A NEWSLETTER but you can read all the posts and support me in one way or another at https://www.buymeacoffee.com/anamariecox/posts
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Sipping my coffee, believing myself ready to show this masterpiece of self-flagellation to my counselor, I realized I was proud of recounting of what a piece of shit I was. I thought of something we heard from the counselors a lot: “Pay attention to what you’re resisting. Pay attention to the places you’re just doing what you’ve always done.”
I had listed my faults with terrible ease. Writing my Fourth Step hadn’t scared me. It had not required me to be searching and fearless. The answers had been at the ready. Obsessing over all the pain I’d caused and the stupid acts I’d performed is what had propelled that bottle of Xanax over my lips a few weeks before. | Posted on 06/Mar/2024 19:29:43
