A year of firsts 🥹 Happy birthday to Kilmer Dove and happy BIRTH day to me and @nicotortorella. Absolutely, positively, hands down the best year of our entire lives.
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
I’m currently writing this caption at 7:30 pm on 3/5/24. Kilmer was born at 9:39 pm on 3/5/23 which means at this moment, one year ago I was at the most challenging part of my labor. They call it “transition” – the end of active labor right before you start pushing. For most birthers, it’s the moment where you want to give up, and I was no exception. I remember cursing my home birth and thinking if I were in a hospital I’d have them pump me with every drug on earth (in actuality I’m so grateful for my unmedicated birth and would do it 100x’s over bc it was the right decision for ME) Transition. The final stage before you push. The second to last stage before baby takes their first breath and you become a mother. The hardest point that ushers in the biggest reward. Transition is right. What a transition this year has been. One I had no idea would affect me so deeply or so profoundly. I don’t know if it’s this way for everyone, I certainly don’t think you need to have a baby to experience life altering change, but I did. That I know. I was meant to have Kilmer, and she was meant to have me, and Nico and I were meant to have this family. About a week after Kilmer was born, we had her chart read by the incredible @jennracioppi and last night we listened to the recording, a tradition we plan to do every year on her birthday. One consistent theme that kept coming up when our charts were read all together was that the three of us created a little universe. Me being the soil for Kilmer – the nourishment, the grounding. Nico being the sky – the light, the possibility. And Kilmer being the space between – helping us both root deeper and grow taller. Kilmer Dove Meyers Tortorella, you have opened up a whole new universe for us. A hallmark of your birth chart is “healer” and you have already began your life’s work. Thank you for choosing me, for choosing us. We waited a long time for you and it was worth every. single. second. Photos from Kilmer’s birthday party by the very talented @ashtonroyalcreative (highly recommend if you are seeking a south Florida photographer!)
Excuse my heart, it’s exploding with 💓 this morning. // @nicotortorella
Excuse my heart, it’s exploding with 💓 this morning. // @nicotortorella
Excuse my heart, it’s exploding with 💓 this morning. // @nicotortorella
Excuse my heart, it’s exploding with 💓 this morning. // @nicotortorella
Excuse my heart, it’s exploding with 💓 this morning. // @nicotortorella
6 years today, and I’d do 600 more. Happy anniversary @nicotortorella // 3’s and 9’s forever.
6 years today, and I’d do 600 more. Happy anniversary @nicotortorella // 3’s and 9’s forever.
6 years today, and I’d do 600 more. Happy anniversary @nicotortorella // 3’s and 9’s forever.
6 years today, and I’d do 600 more. Happy anniversary @nicotortorella // 3’s and 9’s forever.
YOU GUYSSSS KILMER DOVE TURNS 1 IN EXACTLY ONE WEEK (3/5)!! Her birthday party is this Saturday and I had to share the invite because it’s made me smile every day since we made it 🕊️ If anything I think of this party as a celebration for me and @nicotortorella, a commemoration of our family surviving and thriving during its first year as a party of three. Babies won’t remember their first birthdays but parents sure will – and this actually applies to a lot of those early years. Parents save momentos and baby clothes and photos in hopes to give them to their kids and say “remember when!” But kids will never look upon these tokens with the same nostalgia that we do, because at the end of the day…these are really OUR sweet memories. So this weekend, with family and friends, we’ll make beautiful memories and celebrate our first year as parents while saying goodbye to our baby and hello to our freaking TODDLER!!! Let’s party!! Made the invites on @postable, same place we made our holiday cards! Big fan 👏 *also the blanket in the second pic is my baby blanket 🥹🥹
YOU GUYSSSS KILMER DOVE TURNS 1 IN EXACTLY ONE WEEK (3/5)!! Her birthday party is this Saturday and I had to share the invite because it’s made me smile every day since we made it 🕊️ If anything I think of this party as a celebration for me and @nicotortorella, a commemoration of our family surviving and thriving during its first year as a party of three. Babies won’t remember their first birthdays but parents sure will – and this actually applies to a lot of those early years. Parents save momentos and baby clothes and photos in hopes to give them to their kids and say “remember when!” But kids will never look upon these tokens with the same nostalgia that we do, because at the end of the day…these are really OUR sweet memories. So this weekend, with family and friends, we’ll make beautiful memories and celebrate our first year as parents while saying goodbye to our baby and hello to our freaking TODDLER!!! Let’s party!! Made the invites on @postable, same place we made our holiday cards! Big fan 👏 *also the blanket in the second pic is my baby blanket 🥹🥹
Something I do help keep me grounded when scrolling social media is look at the bottom of the reel to see if a filter was used on the video. A lot of times people save it first so that part doesn’t show but sometimes not. Anytime I see a filter was used, I test it out on my own face so I can see what the filter is altering (which is exactly how this video was made). I find it’s a really simple way to keep the veil of social media lifted and remind yourself that nothing on this thing is real 🩵
Just human things… Hope some of these bring a little smile to your face. You deserve to smile 🙂
I’m really trying to incorporate more little moments of peace in my life. More time noticing my bare feet on the ground. More moments watching the trees sway. More attention to the sound of the birds. More more more enjoying the human experience. I think we all probably need a little more of this. So maybe you’ll stop scrolling for a second and breathe with me, or better yet, maybe this video will serve as a reminder to ditch the phone and step outside for a breath of fresh air. ☀️💫🌕 love you guys xx
Inhale. Exhale. 35 seconds to cleanse your feed. I’ve been thinking a lot about this little excerpt from my book, I Am More Than My Body, and how sometimes NOT relinquishing control can be a good thing. Maybe instead of surrender, it’s about how we channel control and how we choose to let it serve us. 🩵