Ethan Suplee

Ethan Suplee Instagram – I always loved the masks I got to wear. Pulling on the mantle of the character I was going to play afforded me some freedom. My body was something I felt deep shame about, except when acting. Whatever character I played, my body was exactly correct in those moments, my shame would briefly evaporate and I would experience the world through a shame free lens.
This one was wild, this one was the 11 year old me who loved The Cure and Siouxsie and the Banshees but without the shame and self loathing.
Much of my life was spent trying to escape from the discomfort of right now. Right now has been something to be anesthetized for, in order to cope. Whether with food or drugs, I sought to diminish this discomfort.
Today I still feel shame, I still feel inadequate, but I bask in that discomfort. I seek it out and examine it. I let that discomfort wash over and consume me. And I am ok.
I will win.
So can you. | Posted on 05/Apr/2024 23:02:19