right: me on may 1, 2024. left: me at the peak of my illness in 2017. i finally got really good health news (knock on wood). i’ve mentioned before but i went through a horrible freak health accident that had years of consequences. in 2018, i took a breathing test, we knew it was going to be bad but didn’t know how bad. it came back and it said that i had 39% lung capacity. my doctor said i should meet with the transplant team and start the process. i did and i begged the doctors and the universe to keep me from having to do this. i immediately got out of the cold weather and drove to florida and sat as still as possible in the sunshine. i went to doctors, i took the medicine, i used my oxygen tank and crystals and did acupuncture. and somehow, over the years a sort of miracle happened. i got better, through sheer dumb luck and finally have made it back to having 71% lung capacity. wow. thanking the universe for letting me live in an independent way. sometimes stuff does not work out but sometimes it does. feeling so grateful.
my life is a bit unrecognizable to me right now. and i mean that in the best of ways. ever since i was a kid i walked on the sunny side of the street and i find myself literally and figuratively on the sunny side most days. like for everyone who is reading this, turning into who i am today has been difficult. i was drunk and high on the day of my fathers funeral. i’d wake up some mornings with hangovers so bad id need to drink a beer secretly to keep my skull from buzzing too hard. i worked so hard to get sober and a year and a half into it i was diagnosed with an extremely rare lung disorder caused by some sort of exposure to chemicals i never saw. i was in and out of the hospitals for years, all while trying to manage an extremely ambitious career. i found a sweet prince who wanted to take care of me and make me feel safe and we rode out the pandemic together. when covid was done and both he and i and our families were still alive (not the case for all folks) i was relived but desperate to get back to the world but as a result (and many other things) we lost each other. i was single at 34 and i saw my life begin to open up in ways that only could be considered some sort of divine intervention (not god but something with the universe). i was able to move towards scripted with folks i had admired for years. ive been given so many opportunities to work on stories and documentaries i care deeply about. my finances went from stable to earning real income as a “freelance documentary film director,” something pretty unheard of, even now. my lungs did not worsen like the doctors predicted but they stayed the same and even improved just a little which is everything. so as i look at these pictures i cherish being in the sun, just for this moment as we never know when the shade will hit and that is okay, its life after all. may the sun shine on you and yours today. 🎞️: @transnormativity hair and makeup: @danyellabee shot by A in my backyard on april 15th, 2024.
my life is a bit unrecognizable to me right now. and i mean that in the best of ways. ever since i was a kid i walked on the sunny side of the street and i find myself literally and figuratively on the sunny side most days. like for everyone who is reading this, turning into who i am today has been difficult. i was drunk and high on the day of my fathers funeral. i’d wake up some mornings with hangovers so bad id need to drink a beer secretly to keep my skull from buzzing too hard. i worked so hard to get sober and a year and a half into it i was diagnosed with an extremely rare lung disorder caused by some sort of exposure to chemicals i never saw. i was in and out of the hospitals for years, all while trying to manage an extremely ambitious career. i found a sweet prince who wanted to take care of me and make me feel safe and we rode out the pandemic together. when covid was done and both he and i and our families were still alive (not the case for all folks) i was relived but desperate to get back to the world but as a result (and many other things) we lost each other. i was single at 34 and i saw my life begin to open up in ways that only could be considered some sort of divine intervention (not god but something with the universe). i was able to move towards scripted with folks i had admired for years. ive been given so many opportunities to work on stories and documentaries i care deeply about. my finances went from stable to earning real income as a “freelance documentary film director,” something pretty unheard of, even now. my lungs did not worsen like the doctors predicted but they stayed the same and even improved just a little which is everything. so as i look at these pictures i cherish being in the sun, just for this moment as we never know when the shade will hit and that is okay, its life after all. may the sun shine on you and yours today. 🎞️: @transnormativity hair and makeup: @danyellabee shot by A in my backyard on april 15th, 2024.
had to post on the grid things i got from vice expert producing skills a nice/friendly cocaine dealer many life long friends much knowledge of tardigrades, shoenice, aliens, occupy wall street, 3d printed guns, misogyny and empire building meme by @_meher
as an aries obviously i threw a big housewarming party (i rent) in conjunction with what happens to be my birthday month. i had a joyous amount of time celebrating with the beautiful community i’ve build in LA (with the notable help from wisconsin pals @alreinhart and @vickis2110). i couldn’t feel luckier or happier. thank you to @ks.eventplanning for making this dream day happen. ps i also find it pretty hysterical that i, as an alcoholic, purchased WAYYY TOO MUCH alcohol and was giving away bottles at the end of the night as to not have it in the house. better safe than sorry! make-up and hair: @danyellabee flower crown by @__emmykenny__ 🩵💚😏💙💜🩵💚🩷💙💜 #36
as an aries obviously i threw a big housewarming party (i rent) in conjunction with what happens to be my birthday month. i had a joyous amount of time celebrating with the beautiful community i’ve build in LA (with the notable help from wisconsin pals @alreinhart and @vickis2110). i couldn’t feel luckier or happier. thank you to @ks.eventplanning for making this dream day happen. ps i also find it pretty hysterical that i, as an alcoholic, purchased WAYYY TOO MUCH alcohol and was giving away bottles at the end of the night as to not have it in the house. better safe than sorry! make-up and hair: @danyellabee flower crown by @__emmykenny__ 🩵💚😏💙💜🩵💚🩷💙💜 #36
as an aries obviously i threw a big housewarming party (i rent) in conjunction with what happens to be my birthday month. i had a joyous amount of time celebrating with the beautiful community i’ve build in LA (with the notable help from wisconsin pals @alreinhart and @vickis2110). i couldn’t feel luckier or happier. thank you to @ks.eventplanning for making this dream day happen. ps i also find it pretty hysterical that i, as an alcoholic, purchased WAYYY TOO MUCH alcohol and was giving away bottles at the end of the night as to not have it in the house. better safe than sorry! make-up and hair: @danyellabee flower crown by @__emmykenny__ 🩵💚😏💙💜🩵💚🩷💙💜 #36
never 4get always LOLing when random men try to discuss my father with me and what he thinks
*** not afraid to get in the dirt not afraid to make lemonade out of life’s lemons no afraid to be tough and vulnerable at the same time continuation of a photo session with the masterful @transnormativity, one of the preeminent photographers working today (in my opinion!) they take photos that reveal people’s id while showing vulnerability. and did i mention they shoot on film? if you want some beautiful photos of you, you with your lover, you with your lovers… please book them! they are based on LA but often travel. and truly beautiful makeup and hair looks from @danyellabee 🩷🩷🩷🩷
*** not afraid to get in the dirt not afraid to make lemonade out of life’s lemons no afraid to be tough and vulnerable at the same time continuation of a photo session with the masterful @transnormativity, one of the preeminent photographers working today (in my opinion!) they take photos that reveal people’s id while showing vulnerability. and did i mention they shoot on film? if you want some beautiful photos of you, you with your lover, you with your lovers… please book them! they are based on LA but often travel. and truly beautiful makeup and hair looks from @danyellabee 🩷🩷🩷🩷
*** not afraid to get in the dirt not afraid to make lemonade out of life’s lemons no afraid to be tough and vulnerable at the same time continuation of a photo session with the masterful @transnormativity, one of the preeminent photographers working today (in my opinion!) they take photos that reveal people’s id while showing vulnerability. and did i mention they shoot on film? if you want some beautiful photos of you, you with your lover, you with your lovers… please book them! they are based on LA but often travel. and truly beautiful makeup and hair looks from @danyellabee 🩷🩷🩷🩷
just wrapped something super wild… countdown soon for a new feature doc on @hulu. you have never heard this story before… We missed all who could not be there but we are so excited to celebrate in person soon!! THANK YOU @miranda_mango @elyssahess @katebarry5 Dena, Kyiana, Madeline, @teganandsara, @ava.benjamins, Casey @shutup.ariel, @arielgreenberg, @piershenwood @cstauder, @jennylsq, Tim K. Smith, @tubafresh, @christinekng, Michael, Noah, Matt, Gabriella, Krystalline, Jon, @katuubug, Beth and @belisabal 🩷🩵💜💙❤️ #ittakesavillage #thisdoclife
just wrapped something super wild… countdown soon for a new feature doc on @hulu. you have never heard this story before… We missed all who could not be there but we are so excited to celebrate in person soon!! THANK YOU @miranda_mango @elyssahess @katebarry5 Dena, Kyiana, Madeline, @teganandsara, @ava.benjamins, Casey @shutup.ariel, @arielgreenberg, @piershenwood @cstauder, @jennylsq, Tim K. Smith, @tubafresh, @christinekng, Michael, Noah, Matt, Gabriella, Krystalline, Jon, @katuubug, Beth and @belisabal 🩷🩵💜💙❤️ #ittakesavillage #thisdoclife
just wrapped something super wild… countdown soon for a new feature doc on @hulu. you have never heard this story before… We missed all who could not be there but we are so excited to celebrate in person soon!! THANK YOU @miranda_mango @elyssahess @katebarry5 Dena, Kyiana, Madeline, @teganandsara, @ava.benjamins, Casey @shutup.ariel, @arielgreenberg, @piershenwood @cstauder, @jennylsq, Tim K. Smith, @tubafresh, @christinekng, Michael, Noah, Matt, Gabriella, Krystalline, Jon, @katuubug, Beth and @belisabal 🩷🩵💜💙❤️ #ittakesavillage #thisdoclife
CUPS UP!!! ☕⬆️ We are so excited for you to listen to today’s conversation with talented filmmaker and author @erinleecarr! 👑 Erin has been a bright light in the dark world of #TrueCrime. She’s shown everyone how to do good in the true crime world and succeed while sticking to their ethics and values, and we’re so glad our worlds collided during @lunasharkmedia’s coverage of #MurdaughMurders in 2021! Like @mandy_matney and @elizfarrell, Erin gravitates toward complicated true crime stories and tells them in a way that’s truthful, victim-focused, and thought-provoking. She’s the director of some of Mandy’s favorite documentaries – #MommyDeadandDearest and #ILoveYouNowDie – and author of All That You Leave Behind: A Memoir. In today’s episode, the two chat about the Michelle Carter and Gypsy Rose cases as they relate to the latest case we’ve been investigating: #MicaMiller. Premium Members also get to learn more about the types of professionals ELC likes to work with and what we’d do for a living if we weren’t so entrenched in our current fields. Don’t want to miss out? Join at LunaShark.supercast.com! #CupofJustice available wherever you get your podcasts! 🎧
🥁 GUEST REVEAL 🥁 Tomorrow, @mandy_matney is joined by the one and only @erinleecarr on #CupofJustice! If you missed her first appearance on MMP episode 43 tune in on season one of the @truesunlightpod feed. Our conversations about Gypsy Rose, Michelle Carter, and other stories this phenomenal filmmaker brought to the center stage target the complexities surrounding tragic yet thought provoking stories. Don’t miss tomorrow’s episode with some special content reserved just for Luna Shark Premium Members! Get those cups ready… it’s a good one! ☕
We loved having the chance to chat with @erinleecarr about her approach to creating documentaries on complex #TrueCrime stories in this week’s episode! As the director of some of our favorite documentaries, we admire her thought-provoking and victim-focused approach to storytelling. 🎥 Catch up on this week’s episode where we chat about the #MichelleCarter, #GypsyRose and #MicaMiller cases. ☕⬆️
trying to run a professional account on here but damnnnn, this random man from the phone book is hot 🥵 📸 of @malblum taken by meeee
my wonderful truest sweeties came to visit me in LA. so lucky to have anna and vicki in my life. i laugh so hard my sides hurt when vicki is speaking and feel safest in the arms of anna. nothing like true blue friends. thank you for the gift of your friendship. 💜🩵🩷🩵💜🩷🩵💜🩷
my wonderful truest sweeties came to visit me in LA. so lucky to have anna and vicki in my life. i laugh so hard my sides hurt when vicki is speaking and feel safest in the arms of anna. nothing like true blue friends. thank you for the gift of your friendship. 💜🩵🩷🩵💜🩷🩵💜🩷
my wonderful truest sweeties came to visit me in LA. so lucky to have anna and vicki in my life. i laugh so hard my sides hurt when vicki is speaking and feel safest in the arms of anna. nothing like true blue friends. thank you for the gift of your friendship. 💜🩵🩷🩵💜🩷🩵💜🩷
my wonderful truest sweeties came to visit me in LA. so lucky to have anna and vicki in my life. i laugh so hard my sides hurt when vicki is speaking and feel safest in the arms of anna. nothing like true blue friends. thank you for the gift of your friendship. 💜🩵🩷🩵💜🩷🩵💜🩷
my wonderful truest sweeties came to visit me in LA. so lucky to have anna and vicki in my life. i laugh so hard my sides hurt when vicki is speaking and feel safest in the arms of anna. nothing like true blue friends. thank you for the gift of your friendship. 💜🩵🩷🩵💜🩷🩵💜🩷
my wonderful truest sweeties came to visit me in LA. so lucky to have anna and vicki in my life. i laugh so hard my sides hurt when vicki is speaking and feel safest in the arms of anna. nothing like true blue friends. thank you for the gift of your friendship. 💜🩵🩷🩵💜🩷🩵💜🩷