Amrutha Srinivasan Instagram – A sneak peak into what came from a very personal therapeutic experience.
If my mother were to talk about “choosing” to do something or “being chosen”, I imagine she would say something like this-
“When it came to games, I was always picked last.
When it came to clothes, I always got to pick last.
When it came to life changing choices, I was not even allowed to pick.
The only person that picked me first – all day, every day, anywhere, any time, was my father. I would still pick him too – all day every day.
Maybe it would change once I’m married. I wonder if my partner would take me around in a motorcycle. He would buy me gifts that have meaning. He would talk to me kindly. Like the man that my father is.
I will have a beautiful child that would go on to become my world. She will explore the world of art like I never could. She will learn to be independent, kind. She will be the model child. She, will always pick me – even if no one else does.”
What does being empathetic mean? To me in this context, it means understanding who my mother is as a human being, without me considering her my mother.
What does being empathetic towards myself mean? Understanding that while she may have done her best, it may not have been the best for me.
To all the daughters that still tell half truths because it’s easier than dealing with the overwhelming reactions,
to the daughters that are rebellious on things that don’t even matter only because you are trying to exert independence,
to the daughters that still cannot admit to themselves that their mother was not the best parent because you think it would mean that they are not an amazing person otherwise,
I see you. I am you. My mother was also me only. So was her mother.
The only path to understanding yourself is the one behind you.
The only way to make changes, is to begin with acknowledgement.
The only way to grow and bloom, is to love.
Conceptualised by me;
Shot by my love @dignifiedrepose ♥️
P.S.: This song has been my mother’s ringtone for like three years. | Posted on 23/Jun/2024 11:01:43
