Bryana Salaz Instagram – was not planning on posting at 10pm but my gf just dropped a song that makes my lil heart sappy & emo & u know i’m never vulnerable on the tl so buckle up.
i’ll never forget the first pic, our first date, id never held a girls hand before, i was so nervous & sweaty. bc i was only ever taught that who i was, was wrong & if i allowed myself to be who i was, it came with the consequence of an eternity of suffering & pain when i leave this earth.
without getting too personal, i suppressed who i was my entire life, i accepted that i was going to be miserable & live a lie until i was 6 ft under. be a good girl & do what god told me good girls have to do.
that was until i met lauren. i’d never felt the way i felt when she walked through the door for the first time & said “hi bry”. i didn’t know what that feeling was at the time, but now i know i loved her instantly. i couldn’t suppress it if i tried. i was terrified, i knew that was the start of letting go of everything id known. my life changed when she walked into it. i was so confused, but never about her.
we have been through hell & back & i don’t say that lightly. & no matter what life has thrown at us, we always found our way back. bc i know, just like i knew on sept 7 2019, this was my person.
no matter what happens in this life, she was & will always be the first person to show me it was okay to be who i am, and has held my hand through that journey of unwiring that i still fight to this day. it’s scary what can be embedded in you for 26 years.
she brought me out of a life of fear, shame, and guilt, & taught me a life of pure love, happiness, & authenticity.
i love you, im so proud of you, & i’m so grateful that you’re the one i get to figure out this life with. love of my life❤️ | Posted on 26/Jul/2024 10:34:08
