Fearne Cotton Instagram – It’s not possible to fit one persons whole life, or what they meant to you, or the huge grief when they’re gone into one tiny square on here, but I will try. I met this incredible woman @howtoglitteraturd 14 years ago (thanks to the wonderful @red.swan ) and i’m so grateful for every one of those years. I’ve spent all of today looking through so many photos of the brilliant, silly, magical and special times we spent together. When you were with her almost anything was possible. She would have an idea and two minutes later you’d be trying to plan how to bring it to life. She rarely took no for an answer in the best way possible; getting the best musicians out there to play at our charity festival for @coppafeel or convincing others to run marathons with giant boobs strapped to them. She lived fully, more than I’ve ever seen anyone live. I saw her cry once(I know there were other times with other friends of course), and I’m not saying that to encourage others to hold emotions in, I’m saying it because her magic was to always find another way. She saw small chinks of light as potential and opportunity. Her face was pure sunshine not only because she was as beautiful as an angel but also because she was kind and caring and vibrant. She asked me to design her a tattoo a few years ago and I’m proud to say a hand drawn trapeze artist sat across the scar on her chest. We talked about cats for way too long, talked about death (I was way too scared to talk about it before Kris taught me it was not just OK but necessary), ate cake together and sometimes sat in silence. I’m already running out of space here and theres so much more to say. So here we are, suddenly using words like ‘was’ instead of ‘is’ and pulling memories and photos out of the drawers. There’s so much to celebrate and so much to mourn. I’m mostly thinking of Maren, Kris’ twin. I love you mate. We are all here for you. This evening I will be lighting a candle for my dear mate who not only touched my life but saved many others. Kris, I love you. ❤️