Ruby Barker

Ruby Barker Instagram – A year has passed.
I feel pretty stupid for thinking oh God, here we go, Dad droning on over the phone and I have no idea what he’s on about. Maybe I was shutting down at the time because that was to be our last conversation. The last time I’d hear his voice outside of my own head. Honestly it doesn’t feel real, and it feels so pointless, this loss. No point in trying to understand why. I find no comfort in a church, mosque, temple, or even honestly in the words of others. Of course I’m not alone, nobody is, everyone will experience it in their own way at some point. It’s just always there, when they are no longer. And that’s that. My Dad, from what I understood always loved life a lot more that me. He brought more joy and class that I process. He was a star. Truly. I don’t think it would be possible to miss him anymore. May he rest in eternal peace, forevermore. | Posted on 11/Jan/2024 07:55:29