I didn’t like their eyes on me The older boys But I still played their kissing games in the dark of the laundry mat We, the unmothered, were an army fighting against ourselves Small , practicing defiance Some games turned violent. My head pushed against the wall Knees burned from the ancient carpet In the hallways where We dog piled til death 5 condominiums of feral children Two dirt stained pools A field of aspen Off a dead end road that could lead to the lake If you knew , you knew I refused to brush my hair Standing 4 foot 2 In my jelly half heels in the middle of winter We barely ate breakfast indoors Kitchen counter thieves Traded oranges And plastic bags of koolaid With the edges knawed off Feeding My girlhood rage My mouth stained Spare change From the sidewalk gutters And my older brothers closet Scavenged For the lady who sold candy From her second story apartment Pan dulce Sunday’s sometimes I went so hungry I would hallucinate skeletons dancing in the dimly lit stairways. …… to be continued… need a space to write these remembering’s down.
I didn’t like their eyes on me The older boys But I still played their kissing games in the dark of the laundry mat We, the unmothered, were an army fighting against ourselves Small , practicing defiance Some games turned violent. My head pushed against the wall Knees burned from the ancient carpet In the hallways where We dog piled til death 5 condominiums of feral children Two dirt stained pools A field of aspen Off a dead end road that could lead to the lake If you knew , you knew I refused to brush my hair Standing 4 foot 2 In my jelly half heels in the middle of winter We barely ate breakfast indoors Kitchen counter thieves Traded oranges And plastic bags of koolaid With the edges knawed off Feeding My girlhood rage My mouth stained Spare change From the sidewalk gutters And my older brothers closet Scavenged For the lady who sold candy From her second story apartment Pan dulce Sunday’s sometimes I went so hungry I would hallucinate skeletons dancing in the dimly lit stairways. …… to be continued… need a space to write these remembering’s down.
I didn’t like their eyes on me The older boys But I still played their kissing games in the dark of the laundry mat We, the unmothered, were an army fighting against ourselves Small , practicing defiance Some games turned violent. My head pushed against the wall Knees burned from the ancient carpet In the hallways where We dog piled til death 5 condominiums of feral children Two dirt stained pools A field of aspen Off a dead end road that could lead to the lake If you knew , you knew I refused to brush my hair Standing 4 foot 2 In my jelly half heels in the middle of winter We barely ate breakfast indoors Kitchen counter thieves Traded oranges And plastic bags of koolaid With the edges knawed off Feeding My girlhood rage My mouth stained Spare change From the sidewalk gutters And my older brothers closet Scavenged For the lady who sold candy From her second story apartment Pan dulce Sunday’s sometimes I went so hungry I would hallucinate skeletons dancing in the dimly lit stairways. …… to be continued… need a space to write these remembering’s down.
He takes And I lay down I plan And hurry He lays the groundwork And I manage the spills The routine Is ours A game I started long ago He now leads with I pull back And watch him run wild With his own Inner disciplines “ this is beautiful mama” A small thank you for a snack plate “This is hard “ A crumple moment in the sand “ we can do hard things together babe “ A life Of trying Together Our Practice space for the long road ahead
He takes And I lay down I plan And hurry He lays the groundwork And I manage the spills The routine Is ours A game I started long ago He now leads with I pull back And watch him run wild With his own Inner disciplines “ this is beautiful mama” A small thank you for a snack plate “This is hard “ A crumple moment in the sand “ we can do hard things together babe “ A life Of trying Together Our Practice space for the long road ahead
He takes And I lay down I plan And hurry He lays the groundwork And I manage the spills The routine Is ours A game I started long ago He now leads with I pull back And watch him run wild With his own Inner disciplines “ this is beautiful mama” A small thank you for a snack plate “This is hard “ A crumple moment in the sand “ we can do hard things together babe “ A life Of trying Together Our Practice space for the long road ahead
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Fall You touch me In all the right ways I love your bare Broken limbs In a Mess of growth in my yard I long to be heralded For the same
Saturday gratitudes// Even now In the smaller moments Of coffee And morning chores I feel your hand Pressed softly on my ass The other tracing Gentle encouragement on my skin “Your so soft” “Your doing so well” “How do you feel?” I arch my neck back Body stretched In a new song Of simple pleasure. “ I feel amazing.” “Thank you”
Saturday gratitudes// Even now In the smaller moments Of coffee And morning chores I feel your hand Pressed softly on my ass The other tracing Gentle encouragement on my skin “Your so soft” “Your doing so well” “How do you feel?” I arch my neck back Body stretched In a new song Of simple pleasure. “ I feel amazing.” “Thank you”
Saturday gratitudes// Even now In the smaller moments Of coffee And morning chores I feel your hand Pressed softly on my ass The other tracing Gentle encouragement on my skin “Your so soft” “Your doing so well” “How do you feel?” I arch my neck back Body stretched In a new song Of simple pleasure. “ I feel amazing.” “Thank you”
First time I shot in New Mexico was in 2014 for a film called “Bottom Of The World” . We shot the majority of the film in one hotel called the El Rancho Inn , where all the cast and crew stayed in Gallop , NM. A dry little city amongst a sea of desert beauty. It was a really special experience getting to work with the incredible @douglasthesmithest and dance and get hijacked and play into weird fever dreams. Thrilled to be exploring New Mexico again. I wanna drive deep out into unknown places at dawn and see what this place has for me. Any recommendations my loves? Tiny highways , hikes and watering holes? Some 35 mm film pics from behind the scenes on set.
First time I shot in New Mexico was in 2014 for a film called “Bottom Of The World” . We shot the majority of the film in one hotel called the El Rancho Inn , where all the cast and crew stayed in Gallop , NM. A dry little city amongst a sea of desert beauty. It was a really special experience getting to work with the incredible @douglasthesmithest and dance and get hijacked and play into weird fever dreams. Thrilled to be exploring New Mexico again. I wanna drive deep out into unknown places at dawn and see what this place has for me. Any recommendations my loves? Tiny highways , hikes and watering holes? Some 35 mm film pics from behind the scenes on set.
First time I shot in New Mexico was in 2014 for a film called “Bottom Of The World” . We shot the majority of the film in one hotel called the El Rancho Inn , where all the cast and crew stayed in Gallop , NM. A dry little city amongst a sea of desert beauty. It was a really special experience getting to work with the incredible @douglasthesmithest and dance and get hijacked and play into weird fever dreams. Thrilled to be exploring New Mexico again. I wanna drive deep out into unknown places at dawn and see what this place has for me. Any recommendations my loves? Tiny highways , hikes and watering holes? Some 35 mm film pics from behind the scenes on set.
First time I shot in New Mexico was in 2014 for a film called “Bottom Of The World” . We shot the majority of the film in one hotel called the El Rancho Inn , where all the cast and crew stayed in Gallop , NM. A dry little city amongst a sea of desert beauty. It was a really special experience getting to work with the incredible @douglasthesmithest and dance and get hijacked and play into weird fever dreams. Thrilled to be exploring New Mexico again. I wanna drive deep out into unknown places at dawn and see what this place has for me. Any recommendations my loves? Tiny highways , hikes and watering holes? Some 35 mm film pics from behind the scenes on set.
First time I shot in New Mexico was in 2014 for a film called “Bottom Of The World” . We shot the majority of the film in one hotel called the El Rancho Inn , where all the cast and crew stayed in Gallop , NM. A dry little city amongst a sea of desert beauty. It was a really special experience getting to work with the incredible @douglasthesmithest and dance and get hijacked and play into weird fever dreams. Thrilled to be exploring New Mexico again. I wanna drive deep out into unknown places at dawn and see what this place has for me. Any recommendations my loves? Tiny highways , hikes and watering holes? Some 35 mm film pics from behind the scenes on set.
You spend your days tolling In a phantom kitchen Knuckles locked In delivering outcomes That Nobody is getting served It’s a kind want A gentle need Of completion An Ingredient to the porcelain plate Your an artist You need the place settings, the bigger stage How else does one transmute The weight of living ? The ache of togetherness? The gift of rage? Your told Again and again No one’s making movies like that anymore It’s a different time We are all in a different space Then the emails come courting Amazon is hiring , postmates needs drivers , RSVP for an early grave But you Darling child Just wanna tell a story , That haunts the other children Into singing songs of remembering A different way ############## Tiny thoughts on lifting so many creative projects with no outcomes in sight. Wanting completion and a space of sharing but the funding is like a pesticide killing out all the original taste. Having so many stories burning in your hands there is no medicine to soothe the blight. And what a beautiful ruin being a creative is today. @barrjessie ❤️❤️
You spend your days tolling In a phantom kitchen Knuckles locked In delivering outcomes That Nobody is getting served It’s a kind want A gentle need Of completion An Ingredient to the porcelain plate Your an artist You need the place settings, the bigger stage How else does one transmute The weight of living ? The ache of togetherness? The gift of rage? Your told Again and again No one’s making movies like that anymore It’s a different time We are all in a different space Then the emails come courting Amazon is hiring , postmates needs drivers , RSVP for an early grave But you Darling child Just wanna tell a story , That haunts the other children Into singing songs of remembering A different way ############## Tiny thoughts on lifting so many creative projects with no outcomes in sight. Wanting completion and a space of sharing but the funding is like a pesticide killing out all the original taste. Having so many stories burning in your hands there is no medicine to soothe the blight. And what a beautiful ruin being a creative is today. @barrjessie ❤️❤️
You spend your days tolling In a phantom kitchen Knuckles locked In delivering outcomes That Nobody is getting served It’s a kind want A gentle need Of completion An Ingredient to the porcelain plate Your an artist You need the place settings, the bigger stage How else does one transmute The weight of living ? The ache of togetherness? The gift of rage? Your told Again and again No one’s making movies like that anymore It’s a different time We are all in a different space Then the emails come courting Amazon is hiring , postmates needs drivers , RSVP for an early grave But you Darling child Just wanna tell a story , That haunts the other children Into singing songs of remembering A different way ############## Tiny thoughts on lifting so many creative projects with no outcomes in sight. Wanting completion and a space of sharing but the funding is like a pesticide killing out all the original taste. Having so many stories burning in your hands there is no medicine to soothe the blight. And what a beautiful ruin being a creative is today. @barrjessie ❤️❤️