Plonked here on a frigid cold bench at Paddington station. February in England is not for pansies. Pausing in between connections. Anyone whos from London will be aware of the familiar scent of burnt rubber from the tracks that has an oddly comforting way of letting you know you are home. The soporific toxic blanket has pushed me into a place of temporary, sedentary introspection. Taking a small beat to stand back from the ever escalating global debacle running amok on the world stage, to acknowledge what has been a motherfucker of a couple of weeks. No need for details, suffice to say there’s been no shortage of death, blood and tears. A younger more fragile version of myself would not have stood a chance enduring the tornado of shite with even a fraction of the decorum and will that I’ve had to muster to defeat the Orcs, which have been out in droves this past fortnight. I know we’re all up against them right now, which is why I’m putting this out there. I can honestly say that without the five years of sobriety (to the month), five years of clarity, serenity, and grounding that I have under my belt, I would have been UTTER toast. Sobriety for me was about removing the poison that rendered me incapable of keeping the dark and malicious entities out of my life, so they couldn’t reach me or hurt me anymore. It’s an added bonus that my life has become immeasurably more peaceful, and insurmountably brighter. There are frankly too many pros to even list. But those who know… know… If there was one single gift that I could go back and give a little me that sat on this very bench so many times in so many different incarnations of searching and longing, the first thing I would tell her would be that alcohol and drugs are not the route and while blood may run thicker than water it does not define who your family are. I am not just 5 years sober I am 5 years clearer five 5 brighter five 5 stronger Five 5 wholler (not a word) and 5 years more unfuckable with. (Also not a word) You get the gist Why add insult to an already Injured world? Just some thoughts from chilly me to all of you With love, light and a whole lot of courage 💡
Pineapple Guava puppy party🍈⚡️🍈 Used to call these dance pellets because they make your bootie wiggle they taste so good… Gracias pequeñas bombas de genialidad 🍈✨🍈
Pineapple Guava puppy party🍈⚡️🍈 Used to call these dance pellets because they make your bootie wiggle they taste so good… Gracias pequeñas bombas de genialidad 🍈✨🍈
Pineapple Guava puppy party🍈⚡️🍈 Used to call these dance pellets because they make your bootie wiggle they taste so good… Gracias pequeñas bombas de genialidad 🍈✨🍈
Maybe you don’t need more time to heal… maybe you need more experiences that show your nervous system a different reality. If growing and picking your own food does not bring you the most ultimate joy, I’m quite convinced nothing ever will…. Planted these 🌳 🍏 babies 7 years ago. Indescribable to finally meet their shiney faces… Indescribable… (Might have cried 🥹) #foodismedicine #foodislove #foodisfamily
You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better. Anne Lamott #yearofthebook #truthbetold
What they fail to mention (as they continue their executions championed by the court systems and a huge majority the British public) is XL actually = XTRA LOVE Xtra Laughs Xtra Joy Xtra emotional support Xtra sensitivity Xtra Loyalty Xtra Healing AND Xtra Cuddles Sir Ludo Flying the flag for XL Bullies and the brandished, ousted and misunderstood everywhere. #xlbully #Fugitive #KillerPotato #saveourbullies #bullybreedsarelife @thelastarkorphanage
Mankinds obsession with the illusion of supremacy and his need to control and conquer will always been his greatest downfall and shame. The sooner we eradicate our race and hand it back to those who deserve it, the better. The question is how many innocents have to suffer along the way because of our inexcusable bafoonary as we exit this theater of man made nonsense … Shadow work with Grandpa Winter (Who is definitely Alan Watts incarnate) Autonomy is gold Harmony is Life Liberty is love #rewildrememberrehabilitate #autonomoushorsemanship @thelastarkorphanage
Solitude is gold (You can mute people in real life too )
Remembering what’s real #rewildremember #dogsaregod
One word C u n t @commonsearth
One word C u n t @commonsearth
One word C u n t @commonsearth
Dear Katy Perry et al…. #actualfemaleempowerment
We need another and a wiser and perhaps a more mystical concept of animals. Remote from universal nature and living by complicated artifice, man in civilization surveys the creature through the glass of his knowledge and sees thereby a feather magnified and the whole image in distortion. We patronize them for their incompleteness, for their tragic fate for having taken form so far below ourselves. And therein do we err. For the animal shall not be measured by man. In a world older and more complete than ours, they move finished and complete, gifted with the extension of the senses we have lost or never attained, living by voices we shall never hear. They are not brethren, they are not underlings: they are other nations, caught with ourselves in the net of life and time, fellow prisoners of the splendour and travail of the earth. Henry Beston #TheArtOfBeing
When Easter Eggs look and feel like Easter Bombs. Courtesy of our taxes. We need to not become numb to this. The only acceptable emotions are outright rage and disgust. The only acceptable response is to divulge and divest. Or it’s your children next. #NeverStopExposingTheTruth #RevoltAgainstSupremacy #RageAgainstTheMachine
Just a pack of dysfunctional misfits and a banned breed or two hanging out at the river with some wild, once traumatized un’broken’ equines…. No big deal… How is everyone not freaking out? Because we all are vibing on a frequency called Homeostasis. A place we can all arrive at when we step out of the prison of our own conditioning and into the lap of truth, wilderness and wholeness. Homeostasis is the body’s natural state of balance, where all systems function optimally despite external stressors. It is the equilibrium that ensures physical, mental, and emotional stability. After trauma—whether physical or psychological or emotional, homeostasis becomes the ultimate goal, as it signifies true recovery: a state where the body and mind no longer struggle to compensate for past harm but instead operate smoothly and efficiently. It is the foundation of resilience, healing, and long-term well-being and wholeness. It is the radio station and frequency by which we can connect to all living things. Homeostasis is the new Quaalude we all need to get high on. We just keep calling up the wrong dealer. #homeosatasis #symbiosis #rewildrememberrehabilitate #XLBulliesInTheWild @thelastarkorphanage
Change of Season calls for all the kids to be wrangled in from every nook of the land and Monte so we can administer their parasite meds, check for any ailments and obviously trim their hooves 🍁 Bearing in mind a lot of these horses have never been tamed but in many/most cases their spirits and bodies were very ‘broken’. Their calm disposition and demeanor is attributed to and testament to our unique and personalized integration/ initiation process when they are first brought in from their myriad backgrounds of human abuse and neglect, that, and the ongoing tapestry of trust that is woven over the months and years of coexisting as a giant human/horse herd and family 🍂 Team work is dream work when you have such gentle Beings like Fede and Ariel handling the kids as if they were their own children 🩶 Thank you Summer for being so kind to us… We never take your rains for granted. Such a lovely day, with happy, healthy horses all round…🩶 Until we meet the winter…. 🍂 Thank you to the few who continue to support their dignity and freedom. We see you 🙏🏾 @thelastarkorphanage #equinealchemy #painintopoetry #Holistichorsemangement #Rewildrememberrehabilitate #freeroamingrescuehorses
This is a post for people trying to navigate toxic environments whether it be people or places. How to be an agency for our own change and take accountability for our suffering and the suffering we inflict upon ourselves, each other and our fellow sentient beings, the animal kingdom and the natural world. Now 10 years in remission from an encephalitis diagnosis from a 💉 injury, recently making a choice to immerse myself into hugely and heavily polluted environments wasn’t an easy call. Suffice to say it didn’t go well. I Just ejected from one of the most polluted cities in the world—Cairo— where heavy fumes from banned fuels still saturate the air. These emissions are filled with neurotoxins like lead, benzene, carbon monoxide, and nitrogen oxides—chemicals that directly impair the nervous system, disrupt neurotransmitters, and trigger inflammation in the brain. Long-term exposure is linked to neurodegenerative diseases, cognitive decline, and autoimmune flare-ups. But hey… our health and safety is worth jeopardizing for a measly paycheck, right? (Not to mention this is all taking place in a major conflict zone…) With my history of autoimmune issues and this level of exposure I’ve been forced back into detox mode after years of healing and remediation. And because I still receive mail regarding autoimmune issues since New Lives in The Wild I was called to remember my two part conversation with my friend @darinolien on navigating toxic environments, toxic situations, and toxic people. How do we read the signs and make different choices rather than falling victim to circumstance? Now, probably more than ever, we need to fortify ourselves—physically, mentally, and energetically—to withstand the intensity of these particularly shitty times. Detox. Discern. Defend. Stay impenetrable. Stay whole. For those who missed it which I think were quite a few as people are loathed to discuss the negative impact of vaccines and neurotoxins Im putting it out there again. Because it’s a bloody lonely mire that no western doctor or therapist will navigate with you. Hope it helps Link in bio of @darinolien
Your return on investment. ………. fill in the blank. I’m all out. #Taxdollars #ROI
National Horse Day – 🍃 When everyone and everything is whole and in harmony….. we know we are doing something right… 🤍Their story from subjugation and slavery to free autonomous beings IS love and healing in action. ✨Every life honoured reflects back on our contribution to their dignity and liberation. 🐴 @thelastarkorphanage is the FIRST and ONLY bonafide 501c3 rewilding non-profit that NEVER adopts horses out to go on to another ‘owner’ and therefor back into the same conveyor belt and cycle of abuse. 💡 in this respect @thelastarkorphanage serves as the only blueprint of its kind to date and is a holistic, living example of how man, land and animal can coexist symbiotically in the state of listening and healing together. If this sight warms your heart and gives you any hope at all please know that it takes an awful lot of hard work to arrive at this level of equilibrium. It’s a labor of love that does not come without huge commitment. Please if, you appreciate and view this as much needed work and you feel compelled to support so we can continue the journey and take in more horses that deserve this kind of life.. and so we can keep growing our work and share their message with as many ‘broken’ beings as possible… They would be so very grateful The Link to donate is in bio @thelastarkorphanage
So let me understand this….while these are indisputably the most significant words that were and will ever be spoken on this stage… I find the sudden gushing and flooding and the sharing of this moment by ALL those who have sat with their frozen sphincters clenched for 16 months while they handed their tax dollars over to the administration that funded this ETHNIC CLEANSING in the first place, utterly nauseating. That this current Holocaust the darling Biden/Harris double act tap dance, are and were wholly RESPONSIBLE for… The very administration that Lib Dems mourn for now, because the muppets failed to keep out the idiotic Orange Kraken because they insisted on funding Bibi and his Orcs, so it’s all good to shout about and blame the spoiled toddler as he just simply picks up where they left off?! The sheer cognitive dissonance of it all. The absolute selective, supremacist, boujee, performative compassion of it all. Was what it took to get you all up off your asses that the faces of the tens of thousands bloodied and maimed Palestinian innocents get dressed up in a tux and parade down a red carpet for you to approve, validate and give permission to align with and speak out on what has and will be indisputably the greatest atrocity of our Times?? The greatest unscripted horror movie ever played out funded by US. The audience and the investors of this Oscar worthy masterpiece!?! And yet NOW we want it all to stop?? We finally found our voices to yell ‘CUT’?!? Is this what it had to take? Glitter, gold statues, and the Academy’s approval? I’m just holding a mirror right now because the sheer hypocrisy of it all is really in a category of its own performance wise. But hands-down liberal Democrats… You take the statue home 💪🏾 And do NOT mistake this for a pro MAGA moment. Y’ALL are out to lunch. The one thing that has been made very clear through all of this is that the only people who are truly walking the walk, souls in tact, alive and awake are the ones who have been shouting bloody murder from the beginning. The rest of you, we see you. Sit the Hell back down and sell your performative, bougie ‘revolutionary’, compassion somewhere else.
Royal Tenenbaum and NPD: Wes Anderson created the first and possibly the only film I have ever seen that truly depicts a family corrupted by Narcissistic Personality Disorder. The virus currently running the show. Domestically and Systematically. Portrayed brilliantly by the genius now late Gene Hackman. Royal Tenenbaum- Classic NPD traits- * Self-centered behavior: Royal constantly seeks attention and validation, believing his past achievements are superior to everyone else’s, even when his actions demonstrate otherwise. * Lack of remorse: Despite causing significant emotional harm to his children, Royal shows little remorse or accountability for his actions, often dismissing their feelings and blaming them for their issues. * Manipulative tendencies: He uses charm and manipulation to control his family, often playing the victim to garner sympathy when confronted. * Exploiting others: Royal takes advantage of his children’s affection and achievements, using them to maintain his own image and status. How the film portrays NPD: * Family dynamics: The film highlights the damaging effects of a narcissistic parent on the family unit, with the Tenenbaum children struggling to gain their father’s approval and grappling with their own self-worth issues. * Unrealistic expectations: Royal holds unrealistic expectations for his children, constantly comparing them to their past achievements and undermining their current successes. When a parent has Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD), the family unit is often built on control, manipulation, and emotional neglect. The narcissistic parent demands admiration, lacks empathy, and creates a toxic cycle of gaslighting, favoritism, scapegoating, and emotional abuse. This destroys trust, isolates family members, and forces children into unhealthy roles—either as extensions of the parent’s ego or as targets of blame. Over time, this leads to deep emotional wounds, low self-worth, and generational trauma, making healthy relationships difficult for those affected. which Tenenbaum kid were you?
‘I am like the resurrection on a day that will come…’ Land of Poets #phoenixpeople
