THIRTY ATE!!!! 💁🏻♀️ Today is my birthday y’all!! I feel so honored & grateful to celebrate 3️⃣8️⃣ 🥳
😱I spoke at the @unitednations !
😱I helped @hm expand their sizes to 4x in the US !!
😱I became an ordained minister & married two of my favorite humans, my family @ponyboy.us @parishelena 🥹
😱I launched my Self Love Workshop which was years in the making!
😱I got divorced!
There were SO many personal victories, & wins for the Plus Size community that I’m so honored to have been a part of. I celebrated 6 years with my amazing team @intention.team @livpeeke & am forever grateful they believe in what I’m doing more than ever! I love y’all💕 37 was also the year I said goodbye to our sister @evilpork666 a week after my birthday last year. I’m not going to lie, most of the past year was spent deeply mourning, & trying to remind myself to keep going. The gift I gained from such a tremendous loss was that life is too short to spend energy or time doing anything that doesn’t bring me joy. Time is so precious & I’ve spent so much of it worried about how people viewed me, when I could’ve spent it looking around at the love I’ve cultivated in my life & being fully present in what I’ve built. You get what you put into things, & I’ve really learned how to make some damn good lemonade 😂😉 38 is going to be such a beautiful year & the season I fully get out of my own way, out of my head & start living. I’M GONNA REALLY BE OUTSIDE! To all of you: I love you I love you I love you. If it wasn’t for each & everyone of you I wouldn’t have my beautiful life. I can’t thank you enough for being part of my journey (new & true!) & I’m so grateful to everyone who made my year so special! 💕♋️💘 If you’re out in West Hollywood tonight, don’t be shy, gimme a big gay bday hug! 🥳💕💘💕💘💕 #birthdaygirl #cancerszn #comeonbarbieletsgoparty
GRWM to see my bday twin @djpaulyd (5th!)♋️ at @heartweho *fist pump* 😎 This show was so much fun! Thanks to my fellow Mississippi angel @lancebass for he best seats in the place! @zenasativa & I had so much fun!
Wearing @asos @heavn
Makeup breakdown:
Skin: @saiebeauty Slip Tint Dewy Tinted Moisturizer SPF Sunscreen in the shade Two & Three
@makeupforever Ultra HD Self-Setting Concealer in the shade 11 for under eyes
@anastasiabeverlyhills Magic Touch Concealer on face in the shade 3
@saiebeauty Dew Blush Liquid Cheek Blush in the color Chilly
@lauramercier Secret Camouflage Correct & Brighten Concealer duo Stick in shade 6N for contour
@makeupforever Ultra HD Matte Setting Powder in shade 2.0 Banana
@patmcgrathreal Skin Fetish: Divine Glow Highlighter in the shade Lunar Allure
Eyes:
@sephoracollection Retractable Brow Pencil in Auburn
@milkmakeup Kush Fiber Brow Gel (I’m sorry @undrcvrred I accidentally took yours & now I love it & owe you one 😅🫣)
@urbandecaycosmetics Priming Potion
@makeupbymario Master Mattes Eyeshadow Palette & brushes
@charlottetilbury Feline Flick Eyeliner in Super Brown
Mascara: @armanibeauty Eyes To Kill Waterproof Mascara & @benefitcosmetics BADgal BANG Volumizing Mascara Waterproof
@shiseido Eyelash Curler
@makeupforever Mix & Fix 24HR Hydrating Setting Spray
Lips:
@kvdbeauty Lip Liner in Lolita
@patmcgrathreal Matte Trance Lipstick in Deep Orchid
#cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancerbaby♋️ #djpaulyd #paulyd #jerseyshore #grwm #grwmmakeup #grwmreel #pkussizefashion #plussizestyle #effyourbeautystandards
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
My birthday is less than a week away 🥳 & I’m busy making Pinterest boards, working on my next self love workshop, & building fairy🧚🏻 gardens with Bowie (why aren’t there more diverse fairies?! 🧚🏽♀️✨🧚🏻🥺 I’ve scoured the internet & the only ones I can find are in this slide?!Help!) Anyway I love Summer, I love fat babes in 👙& eating 🍒 in the sunshine! Who’s joining me?? 😋☀️ nails inspired by @pinterest so make sure to follow me on there: tessholliebae 🍒✨ #cancerszn #cancer♋ #pinterestinspired #pinterestnails #summernails #summerbaby
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
♋️szn aka my time to shine!!!!🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀🌙🦀💓
#cancerian #cancer♋ #cancerszn #cancermemes #moonchild #cancerzodiac #cancerseason 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.
Everybody wasn’t meant to get off at your stop 🖤
It’s been a long road, but I’m finallyyyy DIVORCED & I feel more myself than ever! I know some of y’all are gonna be like “y’all seemed so happy” – the grass always looks greener from afar. For so long I suffered in silence- I convinced myself that my needs, my mental health & my boundaries weren’t important. For over a decade you’ve all heard me say how important it is to take care of YOU, but until a couple years ago I wasn’t able to do the same for myself. I could talk about the friends I shed along the way, the frequent moments I felt like a fraud because I was holding a dark truth & then pretending online like I had the easiest life.
So much shame has weighed me down, so many intrusive thoughts told me that I deserved to be unhappy, & if it wasn’t for beautiful friends & family like @razor_heartz @evilpork666 , & Liv … I most certainly would’ve drowned in it all.
I can’t say that I’d do it all again just to end up here, because I’m certain that there were far easier & kinder ways to learn the same lessons. But I am grateful that I am in a place now that allows me to take in the gift that is my life. The beauty, the happiness, and the abundance that has & continues to pour in from all of the seeds planted.
For anyone who hasn’t or is trying to get to this chapter in their life, where you see yourself clearly or can breathe deeply again. I’m here to show you that the grass is greener – wherever YOU water it. Never shrink yourself, never settle & know you deserve the most beautiful garden in the world.
📸 @bonnienichoalds
💇🏻♀️💄@arosehairandmakeup
Everybody wasn’t meant to get off at your stop 🖤
It’s been a long road, but I’m finallyyyy DIVORCED & I feel more myself than ever! I know some of y’all are gonna be like “y’all seemed so happy” – the grass always looks greener from afar. For so long I suffered in silence- I convinced myself that my needs, my mental health & my boundaries weren’t important. For over a decade you’ve all heard me say how important it is to take care of YOU, but until a couple years ago I wasn’t able to do the same for myself. I could talk about the friends I shed along the way, the frequent moments I felt like a fraud because I was holding a dark truth & then pretending online like I had the easiest life.
So much shame has weighed me down, so many intrusive thoughts told me that I deserved to be unhappy, & if it wasn’t for beautiful friends & family like @razor_heartz @evilpork666 , & Liv … I most certainly would’ve drowned in it all.
I can’t say that I’d do it all again just to end up here, because I’m certain that there were far easier & kinder ways to learn the same lessons. But I am grateful that I am in a place now that allows me to take in the gift that is my life. The beauty, the happiness, and the abundance that has & continues to pour in from all of the seeds planted.
For anyone who hasn’t or is trying to get to this chapter in their life, where you see yourself clearly or can breathe deeply again. I’m here to show you that the grass is greener – wherever YOU water it. Never shrink yourself, never settle & know you deserve the most beautiful garden in the world.
📸 @bonnienichoalds
💇🏻♀️💄@arosehairandmakeup